The Lycan King (Book 1)
Chapter 9. Past

Nikolai

"My full name is Avalyn Alvarez." She whispered and I took a deep breath. "Yes, my dad was JavierAlvarez, the Alpha of the Monta?a Pack before his Beta Emmanuel Gonz??lez and now his son EmilioGonz??lez took over."

"When I was thirteen years old, Emmanuel killed my dad to become the Alpha, he was papa's Betaand my favourite uncle. He was very close to us, but his desire for more power led him to do it. Ididn't know he killed him, nobody in the entire pack told me about it. They were all sworn to protectme and papa but no one helped him, no one told me the truth. Emmanuel, who had been treatingme like his own daughter, told me that they were attacked at and papa didn't make it, I believedhim." She said and her eyes filled with tears.

There was so much pain in her eyes that I felt my heart crack. I didn't say anything. I wanted tolisten.

"After six months, our cook, Mrs. Maria told me the truth. She was like a mother to me, my realmother died giving birth to me. She said that I shouldn't tell anyone or it would put my life indanger but she wanted me to know the truth, she didn't want me to grow up thinking of the manwho had killed my father was my second father. Someone heard our conversation and and toldEmmanuel, he shot Mrs. Maria in front of my eyes." She sobbed. I kept caressing her hair, showingthat I am there for her.

"After that, he started treating be badly, but that was just calling me names or pushing me aroundand making me do household chores. It actually got bad when Emilio came to stay at my house too,he was staying with his mother before that. His father was happy that his heir had come back to himso he gifted me to him. He was almost eighteen by then and I was just a thirteen year old kid. Thatwas when he started “training’ me and made me into in personal slave. He called me his “pet’. Hehad trapped and tortured me in my own home. My only fault was that I had started growing boobsand butt by that age and that was what started his attraction towards me. He first raped me on mysixteenth birthday.” She was sobbing uncontrollably by now. A tear leaked from my eye and myhold on her tightened. I could've even begin to imagine the kind of pain she had lived through mostof her life.

"Its okay, if you don't want continue, Love.” I whispered. She didn't deserve it, no child should havegone through what she did.

"No, I want to tell you. I-I need to get it off my chest.” She hiccupped. I nodded against her head."After that I wasn't allowed to wear clothes at home, my birthday gift was the collar and the leash, Iwas not allowed to take it off. You were the first one to take it of, you are my saviour.” She kissedmy neck, her tears not stopping. But she kept going. That's how strong she was.

"I-If 1 did something he didn't like, he wou-would punish me with floggers, crops, paddles, whipsand even canes, never stopped even when I said the s-safe word.” She said, sobbing hysterically bynow.

Tears formed in my eyes as I listened to her, at what she had to go through at such a young age.She had no one of her own. I would feel her wolf crying for her human's pain. But she was so faraway and my wolf and I could do nothing to soothe her pain

"He used to bring his friends home to show me off, punish me in front of them, even let them beatme or fuck me or have me suck them off. I quickly learned that crying would earn me morepunishments so I stopped crying, I became the the perfect submissive, so he didn't get muchreasons to punish me but he would replace some or the other fault and beat me anyway but it wouldbe less when I behaved.” My anger started surging but I kept a tight lid on it. This wasn't the time.This wasn't about me. It was about Ava, and she needs me. She needs me to just listen to her.

"I even started replaceing peace in submitting, just letting go of everything and not think aboutanything, doing as you are told?? it was the only constant in my life after papa died. And the painwas a constant too. That was my life till I was twenty one. Then I became too boring for him,because I finally became the perfect submissive. He sold me to that place and two weeks later, youbought me. I had no hope but you saved me. You are my saviour.” Ava cried out the last part.

I held her tight and let her cry, let her mourn, she needed to let it all out. I kept whispering sweetwords in her ears and kept wiping her tears. She cried herself to sleep in my arms.

I felt helpless again, I couldn't be there for her when she really needed me. But then I felt good thatshe trusted me to tell me the truth about everything, I understood her so much better now. But Istill had one question.

"Is that why you don't have a wolf?" I asked her softly.

"I have a wolf, Master. But...it feels like she is very far away. I can never reach her. It's as if shedoesn't want to come out. Maybe because she doesn't have a reason to." She whispered the lastpart.

It bothers me so much because an average werewolf shifted at the age of thirteen or fourteen and ifyou are late, then it is extremely unhealthy for you. It can kill your human side and most of thetimes, you can never shift back into a human and you loose your sanity and go wild. Not even theworst rogues are as crazy as wolves who have lost their humanity.

I slipped my hand under her knees and another around her waist, and picked her up. I carried herback to to our house. When I entered through the back window, I saw Sofiya and Vladimir sitting onthe sofa.

"Is she okay?" She asked me worriedly, Vladimir looked concerned too.

"She will be." I said quietly, not wanting to disturb Ava. I climbed the stairs to our room and placedher on the bed.

She truly was an angel who had been through hell. She looked so peaceful right now, so muchdifferent than a few minutes before and I was going to do everything in my power so that she wasat peace at all times. No one had ever made me feel as she did. No other woman calmed my wolflike she did. I felt at peace when I was with her. The feelings I had for these woman grew each day,each second I found out something new about her. She was my mate.

When I found out about what had actually happened, hot, raging and all-consuming fire coursedthrough me but I somehow managed to keep myself in check. I wanted Ava to tell me everythingand not get scared of me.

"I will avenge you, Moya Lyubov." I vowed to her and kissed her forehead. I forced my legs to walkout of the room and let her rest.

"Is Avalyn okay?" Dimitri asked when I entered the meeting room. Everyone were already presenthere. Good.

"She will be." I replied with the same answer I gave to Sofiya and Vladimir.

"The reports on the spies in our lands?" I asked as I took my seat.

"No spies are caught Alpha, we think that they are laying low after the last incident. Natalia is doinga good job with her assignment too." Mikhail replied. I gave him a sharp nod as I took out my cigarand lit it. I really needed this after everything that went down today.

"How long is the list of the newbies?" I asked.

"Only twelve this time.” Vladimir said. Thank god. The court day was coming soon and it was alwaysa headache.

"Can we go have dinner now? I'm starving.” Dimitri grumbled, getting up. I nodded, we were donefor the day and they had done a lot of my work today too.

We went to the dining room to have dinner. It didn't feel right having food without Ava and I didn'twant her to sleep on an empty stomach.

"Bring me a tray." I told one of the slaves and started serving food for me and Ava in our plates. I setboth the plates on the tray she brought, took it to our room and placed it on the side table.

"Ava, wake up Love." I said softly, caressing her hair.

"Mmmm..." She leaned her head more against my palm.

"Ava, I brought you dinner.” I tried to wake her again. She wasn't waking up so I changed my tactics.I brought my hands to her waist and started tickled her.

She twisted and opened her eyes, giggling loudly. Her laugh was music to my ears.

"Let??s have dinner.” I grinned at her and she nodded, sitting beside me. I took her plate in my handand started feeding her first. Her eyes looked swollen because of the crying and her lips and nosewere red too.

"Thank you Master." She told me once I was done feeding her.

"I thought we agreed on not calling me that anymore, that we will have a normal relationship.” I toldher quietly. She took the other plate in her plate in her hand and brought the spoon up to mymouth. I took the bite.

"I didn’t agree on it." She whispered, and continued to feed me.

"I don't want to be the reminder of your past Ava." I whispered back. Why couldn't she see that shewould be happier with a normal life?

"You are not. I can't have a normal relationship Nikolai, I'm way past the normal stage and I amfinally happy now, like this. I need it." Her eyes filled with tears again.

"You can be normal, my Love, we can have a normal relationship.” I tried to reason with her, I didn'tknow how to make her understand.

"I don't want to be normal! I don't want to have a normal relationship, I believe in fate, whathappens, happens for a reason, it led me to you Nikolai and it made me like this. Please, I need it."She whispered, her tears falling again.

"I know you love exercising control on everything. You are a man of power and you love the powerand control you have over me. I have seen the pleased feeling in your eyes when I call you Masteror do what you want me to do. You can't deny it. You are the King, so please, be my King." She said,wiping her unstoppable tears. I never want her to cry and here she is, crying because of me.

"It's true. I love power, control and exercising it on other people. I am the King, but don't you seethat you are my mate, my Queen?" I whispered. Each and every word she said about me was trueand I was not going to lie to her.

"You can still be my King. Please Nikolai." She begged. I could hear the desperation in her voice butI had made my decision, I was not going to be the reminder of her past.

"How about you try a normal relationship? I want you to try, my Love." I asked her. Once she knowshow normal is good, she would start liking it more.

"You want me to try? How?" She sniffled.

"We will be a normal couple, just like I explained to you in the shack.” I told her. She was finallyunderstanding what I was trying to tell her.

"You really want that?" She asked, looking straight in my eyes.

"I do." I nodded, confident about my answer. Maybe she saw something in my eyes and nodded.

"I want to sleep, my eyes are still burning.” She said, rubbing her eyes and lying on the bed again."You should go and have a shower first, Love. You will feel better.” I told her.

"No. I want to sleep.” She told me and turned away from me. I sighed, she was upset but it was forher betterment.

"Good night, Moya Lyubov." I whispered and went to have a shower. I came and slept besides her, Ididn't hold her tonight like every night, she needed the space.