The Lycan Series
The Lycan King’s Breeder Chapter 60

Talon's

POV

Weeks went by and the pain in my heart refused to go away. I concluded that it was a punishment from the goddess.

There was no way she didn't have a hand in it. It was one thing to lose one child but two and on the same day, the scar was too deep to fade away in a couple of weeks.

To redeem myself, I decided to spend more time with Willow but it just felt wrong. As much as I tried to push everything away, the facts came crashing into my heart. It didn't help that Willow had decided to kill my child because she thought I wouldn't want it.

I rolled on the bed and faced the window.

The moon was high up. It was looking down at me. It was whispering to me but nothing it said made any sense.

"Talon, why aren't you sleeping?" Willow's soft voice whispered and my body stiffened. I didn't want to start a conversation with her.

I closed my eyes, hoping she would give up once she saw that I was sleeping but she didn't stop.

She brought her fingers to my chest and traced a path to my nipples.

"I know you are not sleeping, my love... What's on your mind," she whispered as her hands moved seductively over me. But I felt nothing.

"We haven't heard from the rogues in weeks now... You should relax." She pulled herself upward and placed kisses on my face.

She kissed my nose. She kissed my cheeks and then she brought her lips to the corners of my mouth.

"I want you, Talon. I want you so bad..." she whispered. Her lips kissed a path to my ears and she started nibbling on my ear lobe.

Her fingers on my skin felt like tiny little worms that crawled over me. I couldn't do this.

My cock was twitching but my wolf didn't want her.

"I am sorry Willow. I can't do this," I whispered, peeling her hands away from me.

Her blue eyes flashed a bright color as she narrowed them on me.

"But Talon, I have been asking you for this for weeks now... What's wrong?"

My heart squeezed in pain. I hated doing this to her. But I couldn't bring myself to do it either. It felt like my body was in a quarrel with itself.

"What is so great that has been weighing you down? So much so that you can't satisfy me anymore?" Her voice grew sharper and this ignited another fire within me.

"We were mourning Willow. We lost two children. You had to heal!" I retorted.

She rolled her eyes and sat upright.

"We lost one child. That shouldn't be a big deal, Talon," she mumbled and my eyes flashed red.

"What?" I gritted and she threw me an angry glance before turning back to stare at the door.

"You heard me Talon. I lost a baby and it wasn't the first, so what's the problem? Why can't you get over it?"

I couldn't believe those words were coming from her. Weren't females supposed to feel the loss of a child more than males?

"I can't believe you Willow," I whispered, shaking my head.

"What is so difficult to believe Talon! Snap out of it. I have been trying to be patient with you but you keep falling deeper into this imaginary pain you created for yourself. I am tired!" She cried out and my frown only grew deeper. "You are tired?!" I snapped. I couldn't take her insensitivity anymore.

"We lost two children. In case you have forgotten, Avalyn lost one too! And you say it isn't a big deal?"

I couldn't believe we were even having the conversation. She had been acting like she was the only one who lost a child, in the last couple of weeks and I tolerated her. I stayed by her side thinking that it was the right thing to do. But I didn't want to do the right thing anymore if it meant I had to stay with her.

I got off the bed and pulled on my shirt.

"Where are you going?" She asked, her voice a pitch higher than before.

"I need to sleep, Willow. I need to think and I need to heal," I retorted and walked out of the room.

I heard the sound of something crashing behind me but I ignored it. She could break the entire room if she wanted it, and I would replace them.

My legs led me in the opposite direction to Avalyn's door.

I got to the door and my fingers became too cold to knock. I had avoided her for so long, now that I came to her, I didn't know how she would take it. Greg had been giving me updates on how she was fairing but I made an effort to stay away from her.

I fisted my hands and opened the door. Her bed was empty and my heart went to my chest. "Avalyn?" I called.

The door to the bathroom pulled open and her beautiful green eyes stared back at me.

Like an enchantment, I felt peace take over my body.

She stepped out completely and lowered her head in a bow. "I- my King," she whispered.

She had a towel tied around her chest and her wet hair was enough sign that she just stepped out of the bathroom.

My eyes swept over her body and my eyes darkened.

Damn. Avalyn was too beautiful.

Her presence had a way of calming me without her even trying.

"You should dress up, you'll get cold," I whispered as I scratched the back of my head.

She looked at herself as if she had forgotten that she was half naked.

"Oh," she whispered and moved slowly to her wardrobe. She picked out a night dress and held it to her chest.

Despite the dim light in the room, I could see her cheeks flush and immediately snapped out of my daze.

"I am sorry," I said, clearing my throat. I turned around and motioned to her. "Please, dress up."

She mumbled a reply and I heard the kissing sound of the fabric as she dressed herself up.

"I am sorry that I didn't come check on you..." I started. "I hope you are fine?"

She looked fine but the light in her eyes had a sad glim to it.

"I... Urmm... I am fine," she whispered. "Thank you..."

I felt like a young boy all over again. I wanted Avalyn yet I didn't know how to say it.

I squeezed my eyes shut and turned to her.

"I know it is wrong of me to just disappear and then come back to you like this," I said looking deep into her eyes.

"Umm... Oh no, it's- I understand," she replied in that calming voice of hers.

Her comprehension was beyond me. As much as I didn't want to compare her to Willow, my mind did it unconsciously.

"I can go if you are tired... I'll come back tomorrow," I said awkwardly.

"No, it's fine. I am not tired. We can talk... Can we talk?" she said, taking a step toward me.

She motioned to the bed and the chair. "You can seat anywhere..." she said and came to the bed.

As she passed by me, I couldn't stop myself, I held her back.

She looked up at me and the air in the room shifted.

"Avalyn... I am so sorry," I whispered gazing into her eyes.

Her eyes turned into swirls and I saw how they watered and a single drop of tear landed on her cheeks.

I wiped it with my thumb and she squeezed her eyes shut. There was so much too talk about but in that one moment, as stared at her, I understood everything.

I understood her pain and somehow, I felt like she understood mine too.

When her eyes opened again, she surprised me. She pushed herself upward and kissed my lips.

My wolf purred in satisfaction as her lips held mine in a passionate dance.

Warmth and comfort filled my insides and it felt like this was what I have been craving for all these while... For the past week.

And somehow, my body knew it but I was denying myself of it. I thought I was doing the right thing but it was wrong.

Now that it felt like I was doing the wrong thing, it felt right.

My hands snaked to her waist and I pulled her closer as I deepened the kiss.

I could taste her tears and I hesitated for a second. I didn't want to hurt her.

"Please... Don't stop..." She whimpered holding unto my neck.

My wolf pulled to the surface and held her tight. This was what we needed to.

I lifted her and she wrapped her legs around my waist. The kiss became rougher as we each wanted to be in control.

I moved us to the vanity table and I cleared it from the content.

The crashing sound, brought a smile to her lips and I got reminded of how much I loved her.

My fingers went to her wet folds and I pulled the pants that were stopping me from reaching my goal away.

"Are you ready for me?" I whispered in a husky voice and she nodded her head.