The She-Wolf Alpha (Book 1 She-Wolf Series)
Chapter 19

Samantha

Oh my god. What was I doing?

I was never this bold. Literally. No man had seen me naked except for Travis, and that had been over five years ago. It had seemed like a good idea in the moment, but standing completely nude in front of Emerick now, I felt immediately vulnerable.

I forced away my self-consciousness and met his gaze. Emerick’s eyes burned with heat as they raked over my body. I could see hungry desire written on his face, and watched the result of it harden beneath his sweats. Seeing the effect I had on him, my confidence was restored.

“Em? Are you just going to stand there?” I asked.

He was on me in an instant, one hand cupping my ass and the other wound in my hair. He kissed me desperately, like a drowning man looking for a lifeline. I parted my lips and his tongue dove in stroking mine. I pushed up against him and moaned as my nipples brushed against his rock hard chest.

He picked me up, wrapping my legs around his abdomen and started carrying me to his bedroom. I continued to kiss down his neck as I ran my fingers through his hair. When he reached his bed, he set me down and reached for the hem of his shirt. I reached for the waistband of his pants.

“Woman, you’re going to be the death of me,” Emerick hissed.

“I have waited five years for this, I don’t really feel like waiting now,” I told him.

He stilled, “Five years?”

I blushed and looked away, once again embarrassed.

“Hey,” Emerick pulled my chin so that I was looking at him and knelt before me. “I wasn’t judging you. I just didn’t realize. You’re a beautiful, fantastic woman. I have no doubt men have been lining up for you for years, and I assumed you had taken your pick. You haven’t been with anyone since Travis?”

I shook my head. Then I forced myself to say the next bit also.

“I also wasn’t with anyone before Travis either.”

Emerick kept his face unreadable, “Travis was the only man you have ever been with?”

I bit my lip and nodded, trying not to feel… I didn’t know. Ashamed? There was nothing to be ashamed of and I knew that. But sitting before this gorgeous man who I wanted more than anything in that moment, I couldn’t help but feel like I was somehow inadequate.

Emerick spoke again, “Then I am honored that you would even consider making love with me, Sam. Because you have quickly become the most precious thing in my life. I have been wracking my brain trying to replace a way to tell you that I am falling in love with you without coming off as a total creep. I know we met two days ago, but I feel more for you than I have felt for any woman in my life.”

When I looked into Emrick’s eyes, I found sincerity and hope staring back at me. I felt my own tears forming, and I quickly tried to brush them away.

“I think I’m falling for you too, Emerick,” I told him, honestly.

With that, he took my lips in his once again. This time our kiss was slow and intimate with all of the emotion we had just expressed poured into it. I wrapped my arms around his neck and let my body sink into his. Emerick stood and picked me up with him. His hands cupped my ass and cradled the back of my neck as he laid me down on his bed.

He started kissing his way down my neck as his hands started kneading my breasts. I moaned and felt his cock thrust against the clothing that still separated us. My hips ground against him and I felt his sharp intake of breath when he took one of my nipples in his mouth and his fingers expertly found my clit. My eyes rolled back and I moaned his name as he started moving.

I grabbed him and brought his lips back to mine as his fingers continued their onslaught. After a moment, he broke the kiss and started trailing a path with his mouth down my abdomen. When I realized what he was doing, I tried to protest but Emerick silenced me.

“Do you really want me to stop?” he asked with a challenge, “Because I want this and I think you’ll enjoy it.”

I stared at him for a moment. The truth was I didn’t want him to stop. With that I relaxed, submitting, and let him take full control.

He grinned and then I felt his mouth against me. I arched my back and twisted my hands in the sheets. Emerick picked up his pace and I felt his fingers brush against my entrance. I whimpered as he inserted one then another and my walls clenched around him.

I was lost in the ecstasy of the moment as I felt my release build. In the next moment, I broke apart against his mouth and I felt him growl his satisfaction. Panting, I reached for him and he found his way back up to me, his lips meeting mine. I could taste myself on him and I felt more moisture pool between my legs at the thought.

He pressed his bulge against me and I was frustrated to replace he still had his sweats on. I tugged on his waistband and he leaned back to kick them off. Every long inch of him was absolutely perfect. I licked my lips, staring at his cock and heard him growl low once again.

I wrapped my legs around him and felt him push at my entrance, stretching me slowly.

“Be gentle,” I whispered, “It’s, umm, been a while.”

“Just relax, baby,” he said, his lips against my ear.

I got tingles at the feeling of his warm breath and obliged. He sucked sharply as he slowly thrust to the hilt. I gasped at the pressure and worked to keep my body relaxed.

“God, your so fucking tight,” Emerick growled.

I moaned, unable to replace words and felt him start to move. He found a rhythm and I met him thrust for thrust. As he picked up the pace, he ground his hips so that he made contact with my clit every time. Once again, I felt my orgasm building and held on for dear life.

I exploded around him and saw stars, shouting his name. Emerick picked up the pace for a brief moment before I felt his warmth fill me.

“Fuck, Sam!” he shouted as he came.

We lay together, breathing raggedly, still connected for a long moment. I started tracing circles on Emerick’s back with my fingertips.

“Mmm,” he murmured, “That feels good.”

“You feel good,” I whispered.

He turned and kissed my cheek, before pulling out of me and laying on his side. I sighed at the absence of his girth. He propped himself up on his elbow and looked at me.

“What?” I asked as he continued staring without saying anything.

“Honestly? I just keep waiting for you to disappear,” he said. “I don’t know how I’ve gotten lucky enough to have such a beautiful woman in my bed.”

I laughed, “I bet you say that to all the pretty girls who end up here.”

He looked at me seriously for a moment.

”Sam, I’ve never brought another woman here.”

“What do you mean?” I asked, incredulous, “That certainly wasn’t your first time.”

Now he laughed.

“No it wasn’t,” he agreed, “But I’ve never brought a woman here, to my home. To be fair, I only finished renovating this place three years ago and before that I had a condo near the pack house. I’ve been so busy with being the beta the last few years that I haven’t had time for a serious relationship and I didn’t want to share my home with someone I wasn’t serious about.”

“So just in the car then?” I joked.

“Sam, I’m being serious.”

“I know. Sorry,” I apologized, “I’m deflecting.”

“What do you mean?” he asked, tracing circles up my arm.

“You said you’re afraid I’m going to disappear,” I said, staring at the ceiling, “I’m afraid that eventually life is going to calm down and you’re going to want out. I’m a mother and the alpha, but I really haven’t had to devote time to those things since we’ve been together. The last couple days have been a whirlwind and emotions have run really high. What happens when everything is just normal?”

Emerick didn’t answer right away and he stopped rubbing my arm. When he stayed quiet, I turned to look at him and found his brow furrowed.

“I’m sorry,” I apologized, “This probably isn’t a conversation you want to have right after our first time.”

“It’s not that,” he began. “I just…”

He trailed off, still searching for the right words.

“Sam, I’ve wanted you from the first moment I met you,” he started again. “That was when I thought Luke was the next alpha. Then you shifted and we found out it was you. I knew it would make things more difficult, but I promised myself I would protect you from any and everything I could. Not because I had to, but because the thought of anything happening to you for whatever reason, even then, terrified me. After our first night together, I knew what I felt for you was more than just infatuation and I hoped that I would get the chance to show you.”

He ran a hand through his hair and down his face.

“Then that fucking challenge was called, and I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to run back to the pack and hunt down every person who dared to threaten you because I couldn’t stand the thought of you being hurt. Anything worse than that… I knew I would lose myself,” his voice became hoarse on the last bit.

Emerick cleared his throat and continued, “I finally understood why Christian did what he did after he lost Sarah. I had been so angry at him, and then seeing you in that hospital bed, it all clicked. And I knew then, I don’t ever want to be without you, Sam. You don’t have to make any decisions now and I’m not asking you to tell me you feel the same way. I’m just asking you to give me the chance to prove to you every day how much I want to be with you.”

“I love you, Emerick.”

I slapped a hand over my mouth, shocked at my own words. Emerick’s jaw dropped and I could see the surprise on his face. I half expected him to retract everything he had just said, and I waited with bated breath for his response. He suddenly pulled me into a passionate, hungry kiss.

He pulled away long enough to whisper against my ear, “I love you, too.”

And then his mouth was on mine once again.