The Unwanted Luna
Chapter 49

Bianca

I wake up breathing heavily. The remnants of my dream still stuck to my mind like a damn octopus. I was shaking and covered in sweat, fear drumming through my veins.

I was back there again. In the nothingness, where I knew nothing but pain and torture. I can still hear the mocking voices. Still hear how sinister they sounded while they tortured my soul. I wipe the tears that fall, but it doesn't do any good because they just keep coming. I wanted to scream at the world. Ask why me. Why was this happening to me? Why did it happen to me? But I don't bother. I already knew the answer. This was my punishment. This was penalty for what I did to Amelia.

I feel so alone. So lost. No one knows that I no longer have my wolf. That I can no longer shift. It's something that I have hidden from them. Not wanting their pity.

I can still hear the voices when they tell me that I don't deserve such a gift. That I don't deserve to have a wolf spirit.

"Did you honestly think that you would get away with what you put your sister through? Your own blood?" one of them asks me menacingly.

I don't answer. Just kneel before them naked and trembling. My entire body aching and in pain. Shame covering me like a cloak.

I remember that day long ago. When Amelia told me that karma was going to get me. That she would make me hurt. I scoffed at her that day, but look at where I am now.

My mate turned out to be the enemy, he rejected me, fragmenting my soul, and now I was stuck in this hell paying for my sins.

"Answer us you evil child" another one screams before clawing my cheek.

I wince in pain but answer them. "No I didn't"

I knew after the truth came out that it was only a matter of time before karma caught up with me. I'm surprised it took her this long. But maybe she wanted Amelia to witness my punishment. To witness my pain.

"I'm honestly surprised that Amelia went to great lengths to save you. If it were up to me, I would have let you rot in hell, because we all know that you deserve nothing; not love, not forgiveness, neither happiness. You're nothing, Bianca, and we will make sure you end up with nothing" the third spit venomously.

I don't say anything because they were right. For everything I did to Amelia, I don't deserve anything. Not even her forgiveness or pity.

The first one speaks. "She may be bringing you back to the living but you will go alone. For your indiscretion, we hereby strip you of your wolf spirit. You don't deserve her after you took someone else's mate"

I thought I knew pain but that was nothing like what it feels like when your wolf is torn from you. She warned me about falling for someone else's mate. She begged me to leave Xavier when we found out he was Amelia's mate, but I didn't listen. I loved him and I wanted to hurt my sister. I should have listened.

I fell on the ground. Trying to breathe through the pain. I've had her for as long as I can remember, but now I feel nothing but emptiness. There's a hole in my soul and heart.

I shake those memories away and get up from my bed. This was my punishment and I had to take it. Each and every single thing that will be dished out to me. When I woke up that day, I felt the toll their torture had taken on my body.

Felt the emptiness and realized that it wasn't just a bad dream. Everything had happened and I was now wolfless. When Xavier's mom had explained to me what Amelia and Nolan had done, I was grateful. I thought that this was my second chance at happiness. I was wrong. They told me that I didn't deserve happiness. They were right because Nolan hates me to the core. But can I blame him? He loves my sister, he's in love with her and he only sees me as the evil bitch that made her suffer.

And now she's dead and I don't know how to deal with the pain. I don't know how to accept that she's dead because of me. That my fated mate is the one that caused her death.

What's wrong with me? Why is it that I bring nothing but heartache and sorrow to Amelia? Everything bad thing that has happened to her is because of me and I hate myself more each day because of that.

I go to the bathroom and take a quick shower, then get dressed. I don't apply any makeup, nor do I look in the mirror. What's the use? I look dead on the outside just like I am on the inside.

After I finish, I leave and go downstairs. I get glares and hateful looks from some of the pack members, but I pretend it doesn't bother me. They once loved me, but now they can't stand me. I don't blame them though. After all, it is my fated mate that caused some of them to lose their loved ones.

"Bitch" someone mutters under their breath, but I still hear it. Still ignore it.

None of the higher ranks know about how I'm being treated and I don't plan on telling them. This is my punishment. I deserve this and so much more. For once in my life I'm starting to understand what Amelia went through at the hands of the pack.

I get outside and breathe in the fresh air. My eyes immediately go to my current mate. There was something about Nolan. Something I just couldn't place. He drew me in more than Xavier ever had.

"Hi Nolan" I said, approaching him.

He releases a groan of frustration. "What do you want, Bianca?"

His voice is full of hate. Full of bitterness. He hates me and he isn't bothered to hide it. Is this how Amelia felt? Having your mate despise your very existence. I'm sure if Nolan had a choice he would have preferred me being the one that died instead of Amelia. "I saw you and I thought I would come and see how you're holding up" I said softly.

"How many fucking times will I tell you to stay the hell away from me? I don't need your disgusting presence hovering and chocking the little happiness from me" he tells me menacingly.

Fuck. His words hurt. Every single venom he spews at me poisons my heart and soul. It fucking hurts and I can't do a damn thing because I deserve this.

"I know" I whisper.

"Then why do you still insist on bothering me? Get it through your fucking head that I hate you and I don't want anything to do with you" he snarls "Nolan..." I go to touch him but he roughly pushes me and I fall.

I wince when I hurt myself. I know that it's going to leave a bruise. It's funny how I now easily get hurt and bruised.

"Hey! What the hell is your problem...you can't treat her like that"

I look up to see Xavier charging at Nolan. Anger in his eyes. I appreciated that he wanted to stick up for me, but this wasn't his battle.

"Oh look Bianca, you prince in shining armor is here to defend you from the evil god" Nolan sneers, just as Xavier helps me up.

"What the fuck is your problem?" he growls, coming head to head with Nolan.

Nolan pushes him back before pinning us with a hate-filled stare.

"My problem is that you two are still alive, fuck I hate the both of you. After everything you did to Amelia, why is she the one that had to die? You're both disgusting, maybe now that she's gone you can continue your sordid affair." Xavier balls his fist. "That's enough."

"Why? Is it not true you were busy banging this slut while your mate was bearing the emotional and physical pains of your betrayal? Was it worth getting your dick wet? Was it worth breaking a good woman? Oh right, I forgot, you were in love with the bitch right?" He then turns his eyes to me.

"Others may not acknowledge what you did, but I will never forget nor let it. You're downright a heartless cunt Bianca, sleeping with your sister's mate even after knowing the truth, knowing he is her mate... Did it make you feel better when he was inside you? Did you feel vindicated when he was groaning his release inside you instead of his mate? Were you happy seeing Amelia break" he asks before spitting at our feet.

Neither of us said anything. The guilt was eating at me but there was no atonement for what I did to her.

"You both stand there acting righteous, like you're saints, like you didn't break a young woman's heart to the point she felt like ending her life was the only option she had left. Fuck! She did end her life, jumped off a cliff...Do you know how I found her? Broken, every single bone was broken, she had wounds where the sharp stones cut her, her body was black and blue and she was so emaciated I wondered how the hell she stayed alive before. You two are monsters, there isn't a difference between both of you and Agron. At least Agron owns his darkness, his evilness, unlike the two of you that try to hide it."

I take a step back feeling like I had been physically hit just as I heard the sharp intake of air from Xavier. The tears that I held back started falling.

Xavier was about to say something when Nolan's head swiveled to the side and he looked at the pack house. Frowning.

"Amelia? Impossible" he says, shaken before teleporting.

We looked at each other before rushing inside the house. Xavier sniffs and bounds upstairs. I follow him. My heart pounding. Hope and fear mixed inside, swirling like a tornado.

He leads us to Amelia's room. I still when I look inside the room. Standing there inside Nolan's arms was Amelia. Her legs were wrapped around his waist and he was swinging her around, tears falling down his face while she laughed and cried at the same time. "Amelia..." he whispers

"Hi Nolan" she smiled at him. They're staring at each other and I'm sure that they're so lost in each other they don't realize that we are here.

Xavier and I stand there like outsiders and watch as Nolan crashes his mouth down on Amelia's. Kissing her like his life depended on it. She responds with the same fire.

I rub my chest when I feel an unfamiliar pain starting in my lower stomach and pushing its way up to my heart. I pull my eyes from them, not wanting to witness their kissing scene. My eyes land on Xavier, he had a frown on his face and was rubbing his chest just like I was. As if he was also feeling the same pain.