The Werewolf King’s Runaway Queen
Chapter 17

Alissa's

POV

"Please come and visit" Denisse said as a tear fell from her eye.

I cupped her face and wiped away the tear in her eyes.

"I will" I said and hugged her for the last time.

"I'm sorry about Griffin" shw whispered to me.

I smiled sadly.

"I understand him" I whispered back.

Denisse tightened her hug on me.

"I'm going to miss you so damn much" Denisse said.

I smiled.

"I'm going to miss you too" I said and gave her a kiss on the cheek.

"Ali" Enzo called for me with tears in his eyes.

I kneeled in front of Enzo and held his hand.

"I'm going to miss you" I said.

Enzo hugged me and I hugged him back.

"Please come back soon" he cried.

I caressed his back and kissed the side of his head.

"I'll try my best, buddy" I said.

Enzo sniffed and leaned in to give me a kiss on the cheek.

I smiled and kissed his forehead.

After that, I hugged the Luna and waved to the others goodbye.

"Let's go" Luke said and a guard opened the car door for me.

I got in and so did Luke on the other side.

I looked out the window as we drove away and a tear fell from my eye.

I'm actually leaving.

I looked out of the window as I watched my pack disappear from my sight.

I felt like my heart was going to burst inside my chest.

Both Luke and I were quiet inside the car and I didn't even make an effort to look at his direction.

I ignored him as best as I could and silent tears dripped down my face.

I felt so drained that I ended up falling asleep.

I woke up and saw myself in the forest again.

This time, I saw Quinn.

"Quinn" I said and ran to her.

As soon as I hugged her, I burst into tears as she coddled me.

I cried and cried until I was so exhausted that I just flopped down the ground and Quinn circled me with her body.

I leaned on her as I closed my eyes.

"I'm so tired of my life" I muttered.

"Alissa" Quinn said.

I buried my face in her fur.

"When will I ever get the long term happiness that I've always waited for, Quinn? Do I always have to have more bad days than good one?" I said.

"Alissa, please don't feel that way" she said.

I sighed.

"We're trying to take another big step in our life by being with our mate. Soon enough, we'll be happier than ever" she said.

I scoffed.

"Another big step? Backward?" I argued.

"Quinn, do you honestly believe that we'll replace happiness in a place that made us miserable almost 2 years ago? And do you seriously believe that the man we're mated with isn't the same man who hated the living sht out of us?" I said upset as I got up. Quinn looked at me in the eye.

"You're better than this, Quinn. We're better than this so stop trying to play the submissive role because I'm not going to play that game with you" I said and walked away.

I walked through the forest and reached the river.

I sat down by the edge and hugged my knees as I looked at my reflection in the water.

When I looked up, I saw Malik from the other side of the river.

He looked at me with concern but I was too upset with everyone so I got up and left.

I really don't want to see, talk or be with anyone right now.

"Miss Alissa"

I stopped at my tracks.

"Miss Alissa, wake up"

I opened my eyes and saw one of the guards.

"Miss Alissa, we're at a hotel. We still have a long drive ahead of us and King Luke decided it would be best to take a rest for everyone" he explained.

I looked around and realized that it was almost night time.

I slept throughout the day?

I looked out from in front and saw the hotel.

"His highness is taking an important call. He'll be back soon" the guard told me.

I just nodded.

I got out of the car for some fresh air.

"Miss Alissa, his highness would like to know what you'd like to eat for dinner" another guard asked.

"I'd rather not. I'm not too hungry" I said then turned to the other guards.

"I want to take a walk around the area before we go in. Can someone please accompany me?" I asked knowing I'd cause a commotion if I left alone.

The guards glanced at each other then nodded.

I started walking with them around the area.

Everyone was quiet which I liked.

After some time, I spotted a retail store so I made my way there.

"Miss Alissa" the guards tried to stop me.

"Guys, I just need a breather so please" I said.

They looked at each other with hesitation while I continued my way to the store.

The guards went after me and followed me because they didn't have much of a choice.

I went inside the store with the guards and I started looking at the aisles of stuff.

It was entertaining to window shop.

I looked around the whole store and stopped at one of the shelves when something caught me eye.

I reached for it and held it.

It was a music box.

I opened it a trinket antique styled music box.

I opened it and smiled at the sight of the miniature girl and the background of stars.

The music played and for a moment, it warmed my heart.

I started humming to the melody as I gently caressed the music box.

For a moment, I felt at peace.

Until, a familiar scent filled my nose.

I frowned and put the piece back before walking away like I didn't know who just came.

I made my way out of the store and went back to the direction of the hotel.

I thought I'd be able to get away but no.

He grabbed me by the wrist to stop me and forced me to turn around.

I met his eyes.

Luke's eyes.

"How long are you planning to keep this up?" he asked annoyed.

My jaw clenched.

"I'm sulking, so what? It's how I cope after you took me away from my family" I said annoyed.

Luke sighed as he massaged the bridge of his nose.

"They weren't actually your family, Alissa" he said.

My brows furrowed as I pulled my hand away from his.

"What do you know? You barely even know me or my actual loved ones" I said and turned my back on him.

Luke managed to grab my arm.

"Seriously, Alissa? I'm too tired to deal with this any longer. Just tell me what I can do so you'll stop acting like a brat already" he said. "Reject me then" I said without thinking about it.

It was too late when I realized what had come out of my mouth.

I watched as Luke's expression darkened.

"What did you say?" he said with his jaw clenched.

Maybe I was crazy or just extremely gutsy because instead of apologizing or taking it back, I did this...

"You heard what I said" I hissed as my hand clenched into fists.

In a split second, Luke came and held me by the neck.

His eyes glowed green in anger as he stared straight into my eyes.

The guards around us were in shock as they moved closer to us but stopped knowing they shouldn't interfere.

"Say that again and see what I'll fcking do to you!" he growled at me.

I smirked.

"What? Will you kill me? Go on ahead. Do you seriously think I've never thought of death myself?" I said as I teared up in anger in frustration.

"Do it, Luke! See if I fcking care! I'd rather die than live miserably again!" I growled back at him as my own eyes glowed.

As soon as I said that, Luke's expression changed and he let me go and stepped back as if him touching me burned him.

Tears streamed down my face as memories came flashing back to me.

[TW// Suicide]

Flashback...

I watch from my window as my mother and Axel played with their son.

They all seemed so happy while I'm in my room feeling miserable.

Tomorrow will mark the 6th year of my dad's death and...my 13th birthday.

Isn't it just cruel?

It's exactly why for the past 6 years, I haven't celebrated my birthday because it's the same day that I lost the person who loved me the most in the whole world. The day he died was the day I stopped living.

I closed my curtains and went to my drawer as I searched for something there.

Then, I took out 3 needle syringes from the back of my drawer.

I held onto it tightly as I looked back to check the clock.

7 more hours.

I needed to wait 7 more hours.

I went to my bed and hid the syringes under my pillow.

I stayed awake as I waited for the clock to strike 12.

I had to do it before midnight because if I do it too late, I'll shift before I could finish.

At 13, I'm supposed to shift into my wolf for the first time but that's no longer in my plan.

There was a knock on my door but it didn't open.

"Alissa, honey?" it was my mother.

"Hon, if you need my assistance tonight, you can tell me. You'll finally be able to shift and it might be overwhelming so just tell me if you want me to be with you, okay?" she said. I didn't answer.

"Ali, I know you're still upset with me and I don't blame you but please. Please, come back to me soon, my daughter. I miss you so much" she said and I could here her voice break. "Mommy is sorry for what she did so please...please come back" she said and I started to hear here sobbing from the other side of the door.

A tear fell from my eye as I clenched on my bed sheet.

I wiped my tears, looked away and covered my ears as I curled into a ball on my bed.

After some time, my mother left.

I continued to wait.

Once the clock striked 11:30pm, I grabbed the syringes from under my pillow and my watch and flashlight from the bedside table.

I went to my bedroom window and opened it.

From there, I jumped out.

I quietly made my way to the the woods.

There were guards patrolling the area so I needed to be extra careful.

By this time, I've already familiarized myself with the territory and memorized the routine of the guards.

I already had a spot in mind.

I stealthily made my way to the hidden spot that I found and avoided the guards.

Once I arrived there, it was already 11:55pm.

I sat inside the hidden spot and turned my flashlight on.

I took out a handkerchief from my pocket and put prepared to tie it on my mouth.

"Just wait for me a little longer, dad" I muttered.

Then, I tied the handkerchief on my mouth and then took the syringes and waited until it was time.

11:59pm

I took a deep breath then gulped.

I held onto the syringes tightly then I started injecting it on my arm one after another until I've injected all 3.

It all had wolf's bane.

The clock striked 12 and I bit into the handkerchief and I clenched onto my sides tightly.

I started to feel it take effect while I also started to feel the first phase of shifting.

My whole body was fighting 2 different wars.

Death and New life.

I screamed in pain but it was muffled by the handkerchief in my mouth.

A tear escaped my eye as I experienced an excruciating amount of pain.

I thought of my dad as I struggled through the pain.

Atleast I'll be with him soon.

I could no longer breath and I started to fade away.

I heard a whimper inside of my brain but I was already too weak.

Finally...

"Alissa! Alissa!"

I closed my eyes and gave up.

I found myself in a forest.

It was new to me as I looked around.

Is this where my dad is?

I roamed around the area until I heard rustling in the bushes.

I turned around and saw a black wolf come out.

I stood there as it stared straight into my eyes. It's brown orbs communicating with mine.

"Who are you?" I asked but it didn't answer.

I tried to approach it but then I fell into darkness.

I heard beeping sounds and the smelled the scent of antiseptic.

"Wolf's bane? She injected wolf's bane in her body?"

I heard a familiar voice. It was Axel's.

"How much of it?" Axel asked.

"Enough to end her life" someone said.

I heard someone burst into tears.

My mom.

"She injected 3 shots of it, I think. It's what I remember from my vision" another familiar voice said.

It was Queen Liviana's voice.

"My daughter tried to commit suicide?" my mom sobbed.

There was silence from the others while my mom cried.

"Oh ghad. This is all my fault. If only I had been more attentive of her, this wouldn't have happened" she cried.

Her cries broke my heart as I felt a tear fall from my eye.

I regret it.

End of Flashback...

Death doesn't scare me anymore.

Living does.