Tobias - A cursed boys novel
CHAPTER EIGHT - WILLOW

My eyes burned as I refused to let myself shed any tears. If Tobias wants me gone then fine, I’ll leave. I never belonged here anyways.

I had my suitcase opened laying on my bed with half of my clothes already packed into it. I stood there folding the rest of them when I heard a knock at the door.

I refused to answer it, but that didn’t stop Amelia from coming into the room. She was holding two cups of tea and placed them down on the bedside table.

“Do you want any help?”

I shook my head no but I didn’t dare speak because I knew my voice would fail me and I’d no longer be able to hold back the tears.

Amelia came over and pulled me into a hug. It was weird because before last night she had always hated me. I wasn’t much help most of the time. I was unfair in hating her because of what she did to Tobias when I really didn’t even know her.

I gave in and put my arms around her. That was enough to make the tears fall. I had no idea why my heart was breaking over this. I had only known Tobias for less than a month and yet it felt like I was losing a part of myself.

Something about Tobias made me feel safe and secure, but now that he’s making me leave it feels like the carpet has been ripped out from under my feet.

There was a knock at the open door and when Amelia and I turned around we saw Tobias standing in the door way. I had a déjà-vu moment from the first day I had woken up here and tried to escape. Once again he took up nearly the entire door frame blocking my only exit.

I turned away from him and went back to packing. The tears were fading, replaced with anger and pain, so I knew if I looked at him my emotions would get the better of me.

“I really don’t think this is a good time Tobias. You’ve done enough!”

Amelia stood by my side with her arms crossed over her chest. This was the first time other than last night where she was actually wearing clothes, too.

“Nobody asked you.”

“Nobody had too. I really think it’s best if you leave.” Amelia stood her ground even though Tobias was completely capable of snapping her neck.

Tobias had killed Amelia about five times since the day I arrived. Each time she had come back to life but somehow I doubt dying was any fun; yet she still refused to back down.

“This has nothing to do with you, go fuck my brother or something.”

“Don’t talk to her like that!” I snapped at him.

I understood she was his ex-wife and he was still bitter over the fact that she was sexually involved with his brother, but I was tired of the way he was treating her.

“You can’t just waltz in here like you own the place and start barking orders and expecting people to listen. We are not dogs, we don’t sit or stay, and when you tell us to jump, we sure as hell don’t ask how high. We are people, Tobias! Amelia is a person, a good person. And you might have kicked me out, but until my bags are packed and my ass is out that door, this is my room so you can either have a little respect or get the fuck out.”

Both Amelia and Tobias looked stunned and Tristan walked into the room clapping for an encore. I turned away from all of them to stuff the rest of my things into my bag. I gave up on folding them; all I wanted to do was get the hell out of here.

“Come on Mia, I think blueberry can hold her own against the big bad vampire.”

Amelia tried to protest but Tristan scooped her up into his arms, carried her out of the room and closed the door behind them. I dreaded being left alone with Tobias, but there wasn’t anything more he could say to me that could make today any worse than it already was.

“Willow-“

“Don’t. I have nothing left to say to you.”

“Then don’t say anything, just listen. I’m not kicking you out because I don’t want you here. It’s just-”

“It’s just because I kissed you. You don’t like me that way and now you’re afraid that things are going to be all weird. Well, I’m sorry! It never should have happened. I got the hint Tobias, you can go now.”

“Wait, you think this was because of the kiss?”

“What else could it have been? You were a regular Martha Stewart in the morning with breakfast and even planned a surprise party for me. The only thing it could be is the kiss.”

I turned around to replace Tobias standing right behind me. You’d think the guy didn’t know the meaning of personal space. I had to take a step backwards to keep our bodies from touching.

“Willow, I liked kissing you and you’re right’ I’m afraid. But I’m not afraid that things are going to be weird. Don’t be sorry that you kissed me. I’d give anything for another kiss from you.”

It felt like my heart had jumped up into my throat as tears burned my eyes again. I wanted to believe everything he was saying but none of it made any sense. If it wasn’t the kiss that made him not want me around anymore than what did I do that was so wrong?

“Then why don’t you want me?”

Tobias closed the step between us and cupped my face in his hands. I bit my lip to keep it from trembling as I looked into his amazing green eyes.

“Don’t ever think for a second that I don’t want you. I’ve wanted you every single day since the night I laid my eyes on you. Why do you think I brought you home Willow? It wasn’t because Amelia needed a friend. I’m drawn to you. My body craves you. You’ve become as essential to me as breathing.”

“I don’t understand.”

“The guy from last night, that creep you were dancing with, was a vampire. A real vampire who was working for someone even worse and they can make your life a living hell. He threatened you, and only because you knew me. Only because he knows how much you mean to me. I thought by letting you go I was doing the right thing.”

“That isn’t going to change, no matter where I am Tobias. If I’m here, or at a hotel in another town, I’ll still know you and I’ll still care about you. I know you think you’re just trying to protect me, but I’ll still be at risk and if I’m not here with you then there is nothing you can do to protect me.”

I closed my eyes as Tobias pulled my face to his chest and held me. I could hear his heart beating and I felt so secure I wanted to cry.

“I fucked up cupcake. I’m sorry”

I didn’t say anything, but there was nothing that needed to be said. Everything was perfect in that moment and I never wanted it to end. I felt the tears fall free as I wrapped my arms around him.

Tobias picked me up off my feet, pulled my legs around him and brought my face to his. The moment our lips touched my body came to life. He was delicious. His hands dropped down to my ass as he carried me to my bed.

I felt his grip tighten before he pulled me off of him and turned away from me. I could tell that the hunger was getting to him; it was the same thing that happened yesterday.

“Tobias?”

He pulled away from me when I reached for his arm. I knew it must be hard for him, not being able to control it. I was persistent though and wouldn’t give up on him. I reached for his arm again but when he tried to pull away I wouldn’t let him.

“Hey, it’s ok-“

My words were cut off when he spun around and lifted me up in one quick motion while pinning me against the wall. His eyes were blood red and I could feel his body shaking from the internal battle for control.

“Does it look ok to you?” He growled from between clenched teeth.

I placed a hand against his cheek and brushed my thumb across his lips. I knew I should be terrified, anyone in their right mind would be, but even while the darkest part of him tried taking control I felt safe with him.

“Shh.”I cooed.

I pressed my forehead against his and kissed the corner of his mouth gently; there was no way that Tobias would hurt me and I was going to prove it to him.

Tobias tried to pull away from me again but I wouldn’t let him. I wrapped my legs around his waist again and held him in place. He buried his face in my shoulder and I heard him growling between clenched teeth. One of his hands was braced against the wall beside my head while the other grasped my hair in a fist at the back of my head.

We stayed like this for what seemed like forever but it was working. Tobias’s breathing was slowing down and the shaking had stopped.

When he finally pulled his head back to look at me his eyes were a piercing vibrant green color. If I had ever seen a moment when Tobias was fully in control of himself this was it.

“Thank you, cupcake.” He whispered before taking control of my mouth with his tongue.

A soft moan escaped my lips as his tongue did a dance around my mouth. He kept me pinned against the wall as he rocked his hips against me. I could feel his erection pressing against my sweet spot sending chills over my entire body.

His hands slipped up under my dress before he freed it from my body. In a matter of seconds he had managed to get my bra to join my dress on the floor.

I ran my fingers through his hair and pulled his lips back to mine. I tasted him and now I wanted more. Tobias seemed to feel the same way as he marched me across the room and tossed me onto the bed.

I lay there looking up at him as he pulled his shirt from his body. This man was gorgeous in every way imaginable.

Tobias practically growled as I bit my lip and looked at him with a hungry expression. His eyes travelled over my body before he got into the bed climbing up my body between my legs and claiming my mouth again.

My hips arched up involuntarily and I could feel his erection pressed against me. I groaned into the kiss as my hips pressed up grinding into him.

“Slow down, cupcake, we have all the time in the world.”

He might have all the time in the world but I was still human and I wanted him with every ounce of my being. I pouted as he pulled his hips away from me. I wanted to pull him back but got distracted when he started undoing his jeans.

Tobias slipped out of his jeans with ease, than to my disappointment, climbed back into bed beside me instead of between my legs. The disappointment vanished though when his hand slipped in to the front of my panties and I bit my bottom lip.

His finger slid along my slit as he coated it in my wetness and my hips twitched when the tip of his finger slid over my clit.

“Someone’s sensitive.” He whispered against my lips before brushing the tip of his finger against my clit again.

I closed my eyes and let out a sigh of pleasure as a wave of desire flowed through me. Tobias smiled before kissing his way down my neck. He hadn’t shaved in two days so the bristle of his facial hair spread goose bumps over my body as it dragged against my skin.

Tobias worked his way back down my slit before sliding his finger inside of me. I gasped lightly from the sensation that pulsed through me.

“Damn, cupcake. You’re tight.”

I couldn’t replace any words so my response came out sounding pretty much like a whimper. He chuckled against my throat then slipped a second finger in. I had to bite my lip to keep from moaning out loud.

Tobias enjoyed watching my body react to his touch and his hands felt absolutely amazing. He kissed his way across my collar bone moving towards my breast. His tongue teased my nipple before he sucked it between his teeth.

His mouth was hot against my skin and it set me on fire. I craved him in the deepest part of me. I could feel a strange sensation building in the lower part of my stomach.

“I’m going to make you mine, Willow, and when you cum you’re going to scream my name.”

He teased my nipple again with his teeth, and then moved down my body. His hands felt so good I couldn’t even think straight, so when I felt him nip the inside of my thigh I let out a surprised but pleasurable yelp.

I felt his tongue moving along the inside of my leg as he slid my panties off then brushed the tip of his tongue along my clit. The sensation caused my legs to tremble and my hips to arch up against him.

He slid his tongue along my clit again which succeeded in coaxing a moan out of me. My hands gripped onto the bed sheets as my body trembled against his mouth. I threw my head back against the pillow as I tried to catch my breath between gasps of pleasure.

“That’s it baby, let it go. Cum for me, beautiful.”

His mouth returned to my clit as his hands began to work faster, his fingers sliding in and out of me while he flicked his tongue against the most sensitive spot he could replace.

The feeling in the lowest part of my stomach grew until pulsations of pleasure shot straight to my clit and spread through my pussy. I was blinded by the sensation and I did exactly what he said, screamed his name.

“Oh God, Tobias!”

I lay there breathless as my entire body tingled. It was almost like it had completely paralyzed me. Tobias kissed my stomach gently before making his way up my body to my lips. I could taste myself on his tongue.

“See, Cupcake. Isn’t that the best orgasm you’ve ever had?”

“Actually, it’s the only orgasm I’ve ever had.”

Tobias propped himself up to look me in the eyes. His expression said it all, he couldn’t believe I’ve never came before.

“Are humans really that bad in bed?”

“I don’t know. I don’t exactly have… experience with anyone.”

Tobias’s gave me a deadpan stare before sitting up beside me.

“You’re a virgin?”

“Yes.”

“Shit!” He hissed while raking a fist through his hair.

I watched as the color seemed to literally drain out of his face. I was beginning to feel a little self-conscious and slightly offended.

“Oh, well, I’m sorry I’m not one of the trashy hoes throwing themselves at you who probably fuck everything including a broom pole.”

His head snapped up in my direction as he realized what I thought he meant.

“What? No, God baby, no that’s not what I meant.”

Tobias gathered me in his arms and cradled me against his chest.

“If I had known you were a virgin, I would have been more gentle, or patient. Your first time should be magical”

He kissed the top of my head then turned my face up to look at him. The concern in his eyes was genuine; there was something about him that seemed vulnerable and it melted my heart.

“It felt pretty magical to me.” I said and watched a wicked grin spread across his face.

“Oh, cupcake, you haven’t felt anything yet.”

Tobias lifted me up and turned me around so I was straddling his lap. His kisses were gentle and his hands trailed up my body until he cupped my breast in his hands.

There was a roughness to his touch, you could tell these hands belonged to a real man who has put them to use.

I pulled on his bottom lip with my teeth as he rolled my nipple between his finger and thumb. His touch sent chills over my body and in that moment I wanted him between my thighs and inside of me.

My hands slid down his chest tracing the defined muscle lines of his perfect body. If heaven could take on a physical form, he was it.

I hooked a finger into the waist band of his boxers and began sliding them off but his hand took hold of mine to stop me.

“Are you sure you’re ready for this?”

“More sure than I’ve been about anything in my entire life.”

The look of relief and longing on his face made me want to kiss him a thousand times over. The fact that he cared so much about my willingness touched every part of my heart.

He released my hand and slid his own boxers off exposing himself to me. It wasn’t the first time I’d his cock, but it was the first time I was this close to it.

Desire spread through me like wild fire and I wanting to feel him inside of me.

“We are going to take this slow, baby, and it is going to hurt. But the pain won’t last long, I promise.”

I nodded my head because I didn’t trust my voice. He kissed me gently and I wasn’t sure if the kiss was supposed to reassure me, or him.

Tobias re-positioned himself on the bed so he was sitting up against the headboard slightly propped up from the pillows behind him. He had pulled me into his lap so I was straddling his hips. I could feel his erection pressing against me as he took my right breast into his mouth while palming the left.

The ache between my legs was becoming unbearable. I needed to feel him, every part of my body begged for it. I couldn’t take it anymore so I began rocking my hips against him, grinding his erection against my slit so he could feel how badly I wanted him.

Tobias growled as he clenched my nipple between his fingers and continued caressing my breast. He looked into my eyes with a raw sexual hunger I have never seen before, then claimed my mouth and my virginity simultaneously in one explosive movement that seemed to last for ever.

I had a sharp intake of breath as I cried out against his mouth in both pain and pleasure. I arched my back but he held himself buried deep inside of me while cradling my body against his.

“Shh, baby, it will feel better in a minute.”

I closed my eyes as tight as I could to keep from showing how much it actually hurt. His cock was huge and it tore through me, filling me past capacity. He kissed away the tears that had managed to escape and brushed his thumb against my lips.

“Do you want me to stop, cupcake?”

I shook my head no. The pain was beginning to fade and my body just felt full. He stayed motionless to allow my body to adjust to his thickness.

Once the pain had completely settled I kissed his shoulder and began rocking my hips slowly against his cock. Tobias moved my hair to one side and kissed my neck gently. His lips re-sparked my desire for him.

I moaned softly as he took hold of my ass and began guiding my body up and down along his cock slowly. Each thrust sent waves of pleasure crashing into me, each one more intense than the one before.

Tobias was right, it hurt, but the pain didn’t last and now I was feeling unimaginable amounts of pleasure. I felt like I was going to explode and the only thing that kept me together in that moment was his hands gripping my ass. I began breathing heavier and I raked my fingers through his hair.

“That’s it, baby. Let it go. Cum for me.”

His words drove me to the edge and I gripped onto the headboard behind him to steady myself as my whole body felt like it was going to fly away if I didn’t. The intense sensation was building in my stomach again every time Tobias drove his cock into me. It felt so good I was seeing stars and it felt like the room was spinning.

“Cum with me, baby.”

I cried out as I shattered from the inside out. I felt his cock pulsing and my body clenching onto it like it was my only source of life. I was blinded by pure ecstasy as I came in sync with Tobias.

He cried out against my lips as he claimed my mouth once more. I knew from that moment on I was his, forever. My eye lids felt heavy and my body was exhausted. I could feel sleep trying to claim my body and as much as I tried to fight it, it was winning.

I felt Tobias’s lips against my forehead and he said something I couldn’t quite hear because sleep was taking over. I think I might have tried to say something but the dream world claimed me.