Why My Mate Cries
Chapter 89

ALIYAH’S POV

Days passed, and while everyone was living their life normally, here I was still indulging my pain that spread like an infection in my body. My wounds were healing, but I don’t think the lifetime damage would.

Silence and having some alone time have been my comfort for the past couple of days. Ever since I came back into the pack house, I avoided talking to our pack mates, knowing I was far from feeling okay. There were times I would hear the familiar voices of Liana and Alice from the outside, but even though Kae was urging me to socialize as it would help me move on, I just could not replace the will to do so.

That morning, Reid went away to deal with Pack’s affair after having our breakfast. While I appreciated how he took care of me, I couldn’t fathom how he was able to act normally after what happened. He mourned only once and then moved on with his life, unlike me, who would probably take years, or even a lifetime, to move on from all these tragedies.

/”Reid is still an Alpha. He needs to balance his emotions because he has a pack to lead.”/ Kae said to me as she was able to read what was on my mind.

At first, I was happy that I got to speak with my wolf through my mind. However, as time passed by, it became a nuisance. I felt like someone was cheating by reading my thoughts without my permission, not to mention that Kae was too much of a talker. She really had a lot of things to say, even if I didn’t ask her. Despite her having a soft, innocent voice, I began to get irritated whenever she talked to me. All I wanted was to enjoy this solitude.

“I know,” I said, quite irritated as I stood on the balcony in hopes of breathing some fresh air, but my mood was only ruined. “But I feel like he moved on so easily from this loss. I kind of hate it. It’s making me feel like our baby was not that important to him.”

Kae sighed within me. /”Don’t make an assumption that will only hurt you, Ali. Reid is doing his best to tend to us and lead the pack in any way he can. I’m sure he remembers the baby from time to time.”/

“Too bad I don’t feel it…” I said bitterly.

When some of my pack mates saw me from the outside, I decided to go back into the bedroom, my arms folded against my chest and my face wincing. The more I thought about Reid’s actions, the more I felt upset with him… and apparently, Kae wasn’t helping.

/”Ali, try to socialize with your friends. They missed you. I am sure that it will cheer you up, even for a bit.”/ An immense level of worry could be heard in Kae’s voice, yet I only found it upsetting.

“What do you know about what or who will cheer me up, Kae?” I asked her angrily. “You have no idea how I struggle every second to remember the death of my baby. Do you think a single conversation with any of my friends will erase it in my head?!”

I burst into tears as I vented my rage on my wolf, causing her to fall silently. My shoulders shuddered as I cried and shook my head.

/”I’m sorry, Ali. I did not mean to upset you. I was just trying to help…”/

I raised my head, and with my gritted teeth, I told her, “You are not in any way helping. If you don’t want to upset me more, then you better stop nagging me, Kae. I’m freaking tired, okay?”

I saw Kae turning her back on me, surrendering right after being scolded, and then disappeared from my thoughts. I felt relieved knowing that she had stopped being complicated and a nuisance. I just wanted her to shut up and try not to do anything, as nothing could help me at this point except the silence.

The next afternoon, I spent my time sleeping while Reid was away to take care of the things he promised to do for the Silver Moon Pack. True to his words, he didn’t fail me on that. He seemed to have a better plan for helping the families we left there than just a mere act of aid.

I was peacefully sleeping but was forced to wake up because of the sound of small voices giggling in the living room. It was followed by a knock on the bedroom door, which I found much more unexpected.

Standing up, the annoyance started to build inside my chest. I walked to the door to open it, and then I saw the twins—Ellie and Dustin—holding a basket filled with fruits as they gazed up at me.

“Luna!” Ellie immediately embraced me. “I missed you, Luna Aliyah!”

“Here, Luna. We brought you some fresh apples and grapes we harvested in the green house,” Dustin added.

Shit. I knew they were just kids who wanted to visit me, but their presence made the rage boil in me.

I looked at them angrily, and then seconds later, I struggled to control myself and just snarled at them. “Who told you to come up here without mine or Reid’s permission?!”

“L—Luna, please don’t be mad. We just want to make you happy,” Ellie reasoned in her soft voice.

But I never found it convincing. I felt very insulted and disrespected by the fact that they barged into our private space without my knowledge and permission. For the record, this was the only time I was able to have a peaceful sleep, yet they ruined it!

“I don’t need you to make me happy!” I yelled at them and shoved the basket away, making all the fruits fall to the floor.

My actions made Ellie cry, and Dustin immediately soothed her. He then looked at me with dark anger.

“You can ask us to leave without shouting at us,” he said. “Apologize to Ellie!”

“Are you telling me that I was the one wrong here?!” I shouted.

The main door swung open. Reid was frowning when his eyes landed in our direction. He walked toward us and quickly checked out Ellie before he looked at me.

“What happened, Aliyah?” he asked worriedly.

“They barged in here without my permission, and now Dustin wanted me to apologize to Ellie for making her cry! They started this, Reid! I was freaking sleeping here and they ruined my peace!” I grunted.

Reid’s jaw clenched. He breathed roughly and then looked back at the kids. “You two should go downstairs. Liana prepared some snacks.”

“I—I’m sorry, Luna…” Ellie said sincerely before they left.

I glanced up at the ceiling, trying to prevent my tears from falling as the sudden guilt went through me. Walking into the bedroom, I heard Reid’s footsteps, an indication that he followed me.

“Aliyah,” he called me. His tone sounded so disappointed.

“What?” My voice cracked, but even so, I chose not to face him. “If you’re going to scold me for acting that way, quit it. You don’t even understand where I am coming from because you decided to move on and didn’t wait for me so we can do it together!”