Alpha's secret love child
Chapter five

I felt numb the rest of the day until I saw Elias playing in the garden with Thomas, Casandra's mate.The first time I met him I wasn't sure how I felt, he was scary looking and build like a linebacker. Butonce I saw him with Cassandra and the kids I knew it was all bark and no bite. He was one of thekindest souls I ever met and would go to any length to keep his loved ones safe. I was so lucky hecounted Elias as one of his bonus grandkids. Looking at my boy with a loving father figure nearlybroke me, I tried to keep the dam from breaking before anyone would see. Unfortunately Casandrahad already noticed something was off and quickly took me inside. “Tell me what's going on, youcan't go to Elias looking like this. You need to calm down, tell me please so I can help you’,Cassandra said. It wouldn't hurt to tell her now I thought to myself, it might come out anyway if I'mnot careful. The more help I can get to hide Elias away the better. I told Casandra everything, I couldfeel my wolf's relief that we didn't have to lie to our friends anymore.

Cassandra was shocked. “Well, I do have a new found respect for Brian’, she said. “He is still a pieceof work, but he came through when it mattered the most". “Helping you raise Elias was the bestthing that man ever did and I can never repay him’. She took a deep breath, tucking her grey hairbehind her airs. “If you need help with Elias during the coming weeks, we will be happy to help. Butone suggestion if I may, from an old bird like myself. It might help of you see him, get someclosure.’ I was so happy to tell her the truth and to get her advice, even if I wasn't sure yet if I shouldsee him. “I will think about it Cassandra, thank you’, I whispered in her ear while giving her a big hug.“Now go get your previous boy, go home and have a nice evening together. Perhaps a good nightsrest will help you to decide your next moves’. Casandra said smiling. I walked towards Elias and gavehim a big hug and a kiss. “Are you alright mama?’ He always knew when something was up. I smiledand took his hand, “let's go home, we will talk about it during dinner’.

Brian was not home as usual, but I didn't mind spending time alone with Elias. He helped me picksome vegetables out the garden to roast and we made dinner together. We sat down at the tableand he looked at me with his big blue eyes. “What's going on mama?’ he said with his soft voice towise for his age. I had never lied to Elias he knew Brian was his dad but not his real father. A thoughconcept for a small child, but I explained that you had chosen family and blood family. ThatCasandra and Thomas were his grandparents, but not by blood. And that Brian was his dad andwould always be his dad, but that his father was out there somewhere and I couldnt replace him. Eliasstarted asking questions when he noticed the differences between him and Brian. It didn't changetheir relationship, even though it might have hurt Brian a bit. But I didn't want to lie to my child. Itfelt wrong. “Mama?’ he once again asked. I took a deep breath, “some people from your mama's anddad's old pack are coming to visit. I don’t know if they're here to make friends or not. So I want youto avoid them until I know more. When I know more I will tell you the whole story about thesevisitors. But right now I want to protect your feelings a bit longer if I can. Do you understandhoney?" He frowned and seemed unhappy with my vague answer “you promise to tell me moresoon?". I Il didn't know if I was making the right choices, keeping Elias in the dark. This wasn't lying,but it wasn't telling the whole truth either. But I had to keep him safe until I could replace out more. Icouldn't risk it. /I promise Elias, I will you everything very soon as long as you keep your distancefrom the visitors until then’.

We finished dinner silently, both thinking of our conversation and the coming weekend. It wouldn'tbe hard to keep a low profile, our house wasn't that close to the packhouse or Alpha Drake'sMansion. We would be fine I tried to tell myself but I could feel my wolf disagree. "You're still angrywith me?’, I asked her. She couldn't talk back but I could feel her emotions. I would shift sometimesduring training on Saturdays. Training was done in human and wolf form. She liked sparring, butwhat she really loved was running through the forest. There was hardly any chance to run around,most pack runs where at night and I would skip these and fake some excuse. My wolf wasn'tanything special, a bit bigger than you would expect from someone like me. A big brown wolf withmy dark almost black eyes. But at night something changed, when the moon shines on my wolf. Myfur changes, it illuminates and becomes almost white and my dark eyes become purple. I can feelthe moon's energy powering me up like a battery and suddenly I can move faster than ever before. Ihaven’t had much chance to test out what else my wolf can do at night. When I turned 18 I couldsuddenly feel my wolf, I was so excited. But excitement suddenly turned to fear when I could feelthe shift happening. I had just moved in next door to Cassandra and Thomas. I was holding Elias inmy arms, who was almost 2 at the time and I panicked. Brian was gone for the weekend and I ran asfast as I could to the house next door. I handed Elias to Cassandra and quickly ran outside justbefore I could feel my bones shifting and changing. The first time you shift is very painful and Iscreamed out in agony. Casandra took Elias quickly inside and shouted at Thomas to help me.“Breath, just breath. It will all be over soon’ Thomas tried to tell me. But all I heard was my bonescracking and feeling panic of leaving my toddler with a stranger. The pain stopped and I lookeddown, I was big and hairy. But I felt powerful and great. When the clouds parted I could feel themoon on my skin and it felt great. Like a warm blanket hugging me. I saw Thomas stare at. Didn't heever se a wolf before, I thought to myself. Until I looked down, I was glowing. I freaked out and raninto the forest until I was too tired to run. I woke up naked sitting next to a tree covered in dirt.Luckily I was not too far from my home, I quickly grabbed a t shirt from Brian and went to theneighbors to check on Elias. I had felt so worried and bad for leaving him there, but he was playingwith some toys and looked so happy. They clearly took good care of him.

'So this was your first time, huh? You just turned 18? Does anybody else in your family has a wolflike you? Did you know this would happen? Cassandra and Thomas barged right in with all thequestions. No I had never seen anything like this, my family was not special. I was not special Ithought to myself. “No, I softly said, “it kind of freaked me out too". “Okay, you might need to keepyour wolf away from moonlight for a while. The more people that know the more dangerous it canbe. I will do some research, but you aren't your every day wolf Amber. We don't know what you'recapable off yet and I don't want to see you fall into the wrong hands. I wouldn't tell the Alpha yeteither, he’s a good guy but he’s bound to certain rules and obligations by the pack but also hisallies. Politics can be messy and I wouldn't want any harm to come to this precious little boys mom."Cassandra finished while looking at Elias.

Cassandra and Thomas have been trying to replace out more about my wolf for years now, but there isnot much known in the public libraries. So I only take my wolf out during the day or on very rainyand cloudy nights.