I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 26

We are now alone. My gaze does not leave his imposing silhouette, he turns his back to me and my heart rate accelerates as he locks us into this far too narrow space.

He then turns around, walks towards me like an animal that has just found its prey, his gaze scans me from top to bottom, leaving no detail of my little person.

His slow footsteps echo in this unpleasantly silent room.

His body comes closer and closer to mine, I remain straight, my chin raised to show him that he does not intimidate me in any way. He stops a few centimeters from me, his partum intrudes into my nostrils reminding me how

pleasant his smell is.

I swallow my saliva with difficulty, and force myself to hold his dark, tenebrous, wild gaze.

My gaze shifts to her lips as they part.

— First of all… your boyfriend who thinks he’s a doctor, he whispers in a cold tone, never taking his eyes off me.

his voice sends shivers down my neck. Ke tenses me when his warm palm meets mine, somewhat trembling, and he collects my lipstick.

I frown when he throws it in the trash…idiot!

I glare at him, not appreciating his gesture, he leans towards me, my breathing accelerates when his index finger dangerously brushes against my lips which only

desire his.

“And then…your boyfriend’s dear brother,” he breathes against my face, his jaw clenched and his eyebrows furrowed.

I know what he thinks of me. I should never have let Yanis touch me, I had to push him away before he tried anything.

Hearing these reproaches coming from him really displeases me… But deep down, it’s none of his business.

— Listen to me carefully, I…

He doesn’t give me time to respond as he sticks to me, grabs my buttocks possessively in his large palms, lifts me without difficulty, instinctively I place my legs around his waist, and he takes me flat against the cold wall making me cry out in pain and surprise.

And to my greatest happiness his thin lips impatiently seek mine, which he devours with greed and ferocity, I cannot help but m**n at their much desired contact.

His k**s is wild, much more urgent than the previous times, he aggressively caresses my bare legs, his fingers dig painfully into my flesh as if to mark me or punish me.

He growls fiercely, bites my lower l*p and slides his tongue against

mine.

My head is spinning, I can no longer feel my body, all these sensations that he can make me feel with a simple k**s are so intense. He presses his pelvis closer to mine, showing me without restraint his desire which manifests itself under his pants… this desire intended only for me.

I place my hands around the back of his neck, and dig my fingers into his

silky hair, pulling them tightly and clawing at his sensitive flesh to make him transmit the pain that his wild desire had caused in me earlier.

He languidly moves his pelvis against mine, a whole new sensation spreads in my lower abdomen, a pleasant sensation that warms my cheeks more than they already are.

A m**n of pleasure leaves my lips but is muffled by his fiery k**s.

His hand suddenly traps my throat and my jaw, forcing me to stop our feverish k**s.

He unfortunately detaches himself from my lips which want more, his panting breath falls on my receptive skin and his nose brushes mine.

We stay like this against each other for long seconds, each one catching their breath which they were sorely lacking. His eyes are closed, I take the opportunity to contemplate him, his perfect profile. his hard features, this face that

I ink every detail in my memory before this moment ends.

I purse my lips when he already detaches himself from my hungry body, places me on the ground, my legs tremble and I try as best I can to stay upright.

– And finally… your mother’s fiancé, he says right after.

My heart tightens following his words…it compresses painfully in my ribcage facing his gaze…his gaze which expresses disgust.

I inspire disgust in him…he is right, I am despicable. I should have pushed him away too, especially him because he belongs to my mother… to my mother yes. If he approached me like the good a*****e he is, I should have pushed him away like the good girl I’m supposed to be…but unfortunately I let myself be tempted. by Gabriel… Yanis and this man in front of me who can’t stand me anymore.

He readjusts his tie and shirt, after one last look in my direction, he turns his back on me then strides out of the room, leaving me alone.

I want to cry, to scream…but I don’t do anything, I just stay there motionless still in shock by his words and his look…

I can’t stay here another minute, I’m suffocating , I have to go home, far from all that. I leave the toilet as quickly as possible, cross the huge room bustling with the crowd, and rush towards the exit.

– There is ?

— I close my eyes and my body freezes at the sound of Gabriel’s sweet voice

…no, impossible, he shouldn’t have been there.

I turn around to face him, he looks at me with big eyes, probably not imagining seeing me one day dressed like this.

— Were you there?” I asked, troubled.

He runs a hand over his face and forces himself to take his eyes off my body to look me in the eyes.

— Yes, it’s the wedding of my cousin and you… I. “

I just want to come home, Gabriel,” I cut him off, turning my back on him.

I can’t believe this a*****e lied to me.

“At least let me take you home,” he said, encircling my arm with his comforting hand.

You have to run away from me, Gabriel, please.

— No, it will be fine, thank you.

I try to free myself from his grip but he holds me tightly.

“I’ll go with you,” he orders this time.

— I’ll be right back, I’m just changing, I said to my “boyfriend”.

He nods uncomfortably and settles into the chair. He was only supposed to drop me off but I don’t know why I invited him to stay with me. An idiot that’s what I am.

Arriving in my room, I take off my heels which were real torture for me. I then remove the necklace that I had put on, and put it back in its box.

The reflection projected in the mirror really displeases me, I should never have put on this dress. This person is not me.

The sound of footsteps behind my back attracts my attention, through the mirror I see Gabriel approaching me and his eyes wander along my body.

He now replaces himself behind me, his breathing falling against the back of my neck.

“You’re beautiful,” he whispers, placing a k**s against my neck.

I bite the inside of my cheek, clenching my teeth hard to stop myself from

pushing him away.

I take a deep breath, I step back from him under his lost expression, I go around him to turn off the light.

We replace ourselves in the darkness…I walk towards him, the room is only lit by the fine light of the moon.

Arriving at his height, I slowly remove my dress…his breathing accelerates, I sense his dark gaze on my body and soon I replace myself only in my panties before his eyes.

His palms are placed on my bare shoulders, he takes a few steps

making me step back. my calves meet the bed. I collapse on the mattress and he crushes me with his weight without ever stopping kissing me. His k**s is soft, tender… and not wild and exciting like with him.

His hands encircle my face and tenderly caress my cheeks.

My fingers venture to his shirt which I begin to unbutton.

He is now shirtless, my eyes wander over this part of his well sculpted body.

He takes advantage of this moment to undo his belt…and his pants quickly meet the cold ground.

I bite my lower l*p, forcing myself not to look down.

He leans towards me and presses my revealed chest to his pectorals, I

shiver violently at this intimate and unknown contact.

He peppers my neck with burning k****s, his lips descend lower…my collarbone…then my chest.

My fingers sink into the sheets, I close my eyes and savor what his expert mouth does to my breasts.

I m**n softly, not being able to contain the pleasant torture he makes me feel.

His hands caress my body which shivers at his touch…he discovers me completely, taking all his time.

His index finger stops at the level of my lace panties, he gives me a look

as if to have my agreement on what will follow… for any answer I

place my hand on his shoulder which I caress, encouraging him to continue.

My underwear joins his pants and his boxers suffer the same fate.

Good thing it’s dark, otherwise I’ll be extremely uncomfortable with him seeing me naked.

He leans towards me. our bodies are in contact. his forehead is

against mine…he strokes my hair and looks into my eyes.

— Are you sure Liya?!” he asks hesitantly.

I stare at him for a moment…if I say yes I won’t be able to go back.

My brain tells me that I’m making the right choice and that Gabriel is the one ideal man but my heart begs me not to give in.

– Be gentle Gabriel, I finally whispered.

He places a chaste k**s on my lips, then nestles his head in my neck.

I purse my lips and close my eyes powerfully when his body becomes one with mine. It f*****g hurts! Terribly bad.

Emerging tears run down my cheeks, Gabriel freezes, he prepares to stand up, but I immediately circle his neck and hold him

firmly against me, so that he cannot see the expression on my face. and

my legs wrap around his waist.

“Keep going,” I whispered through clenched teeth.

His body begins to move against mine, slowly , I wince in pain at each movement of his.

He growls with pleasure against my ear, this pleasure which I give him, he whispers my name, and I try to concentrate on his reassuring voice.

My body gradually adapts to his presence, a pleasure that is unknown to me is felt in my lower abdomen.

My lover growls harder against my neck…and I soon am, unable to contain my m***s of pure pleasure.

My tears do not stop…on the contrary, they increase. The pain has dissipated but my heart suffers horribly.

Gabriel..my boyfriend, the most wonderful man I know makes love to me, tenderly..as if I were the most fragile thing in the world.

And yet it is not him that I desire…in this moment my brain imagines another man touching me…it is not his soft hands on my body that I feel but rather rough and warm hands …it is not its intoxicating perfume that surrounds me but a wild male smell..

Soon I reach the point of no return…my m***s become more pronounced, my breath is jerky, and I reach seventh heaven in openly screaming my boyfriend’s name but secretly screaming the man I desire deep within my being.

After a low grunt, Gabriel collapses on top of me, crushing me with all his weight.

— I love you..

My heart stops when he says these words. He told me . He confessed his feelings to me for the first time…this is the moment where I have to tell him “me too and yet no sound can come out of my lips.

I can’t do it! It’s impossible, because….I fell in love with the forbidden man…the man I shouldn’t love..