I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 33

Previously

— I will remain silent, but in exchange..”

I wait for the end of his sentence, he presses his lips to my ear and whispers his words which give me goosebumps.

— I want…One night ..

Yanis’ point of view

She tenses up following my request, her breathing accelerates, her eyes are

closed and she moves more and more against me.

I am aware of what I am asking of her, Liya is a very beautiful woman to say that I don’t replace her attractive would be lying..but I’m not such a big a*****e to keep quiet about this act. it’s her mother who interests me. Her

angelic face distorted by anger turns against me and..damn she spits on me, that bitch!.

I let go and step back from her in disgust, I withdraw into myself when then she gives me a powerful knee on my private parts. That’s it, I’m castrated! She takes advantage of this moment to run away

from me.

– Go tell her everything, you bastard, you’ve already completely ruined me with my mother, I have nothing to lose now, she roared hysterically then leaves the room and furiously climbs the stairs.

I insult her with all the names while grimacing in pain, I wipe off what she left on my face…she will pay me for it.

Xavier’s POV..

The sun has already risen, standing in front of the bay window of my kitchen with a cup of coffee in my hands, my eyes are glued to the landscape but my mind is far away.

I look at the table behind me…only yesterday she was sitting there, frowning, pursed lips and a killer look aimed at me

…even angry and hysterical I found her attractive!

Seeing the f*****g tears flooding his face really displeased me, I was haunted by his teary eyes all night, I broke him, and that’s what I was looking for, right?

I jump when the doorbell rings several times, I place my cup on

the sink and rush to open the door.

And I come face to face with Marie.

She enters without my permission, jostling me as she passes, walks past me without a glance or a greeting and goes upstairs.

I sigh loudly not wanting to see her and follow her against my will.

She is in our room…well rather my room, and is busy putting away

everything she needs by putting them in a suitcase.

— You shouldn’t have moved, I would have brought your things to you with my driver.

She turns a deaf ear and continues to tidy up, ignoring me. I lean against the wall, loosening my tie, and watch her do it.

This is probably the last time we’ll see each other… I thought I had a good time with her.

At the beginning, we got along well, her smile, her sweet voice captivated me, and then everything went wrong.

Deep down both of us were not sincere in our relationship… her with Yanis and me with her daughter!

Seeing her with this man upset me. I wonder how long

their scheme has been going on, after all I have no say in it, what I did to him

is much worse and unforgivable.

I hadn’t noticed that she had finished, she was now facing me.

Her scent teases my nostrils, the one I preferred, reminding me of the good times we had together…I will miss her that’s for sure, I behaved badly with her, but I liked her.

“I think this belongs to you,” she said, her arm outstretched in my direction, our

engagement ring between her fingers.

I stay staring at her for a long time… it’s all over and for good!

I pick her up without saying anything, she goes around me to leave but I hold her

by the arm.

— I…I’m really sorry Marie…I apologize for everything. I haven’t been a perfect fiancé but know that you meant a lot to me, I hope you will forgive me one day. Don’t blame your daughter, she had nothing to do with it, believe me. It was me who caused everything.

Her eyes shine, she holds back from crying, her lips tremble and her

eyelids flutter to chase away her tears.

— You destroyed us Xavier…I don’t think I can forgive you one day.

I grab the back of my neck with my palm, pull her closer to me and place my forehead against hers.

— Forgive me Marie… and I hope that he will be able to make you happy as I was unable to do, I whispered.

Our noses brush, our breaths meet and I place my lips

against his half-opened lips.

I k**s him gently, bite his lower l*p, and caress his tongue against mine. Her hands encircle my cheeks, she responds to my k**s…to our last k**s…our goodbye k**s.

She pulls away from me with downcast eyes, she draws back trying to shed a tear and leaves for good, taking her suitcase with her.

I am now alone…as always, I am condemned to be.

The hours pass extremely slowly, I am in my office completely unfocused, invaded by my harmful thoughts…I have to go out and get some fresh air.

I leave my office lifeless, announce to the secretary that I will not return.

— Xavier?!”

I tense up at the sound of Julia’s voice, this dear lawyer!

I turn around to face her, she smiles at me with all her teeth, places her

hand on my forearm and places it on my cheek her lips covered with lipstick that was unbearable for my eyes.

“It’s been a long time, I tell you,” she said. “

We haven’t seen each other since that famous wedding, and I didn’t

really want to see her today.

— I’m going to go to lunch nearby, will you come with me?

I would like to protest but knowing her she won’t let me go, she’s a stickler.

– Okay, let’s go .

We replace ourselves in a simple restaurant full of young people, our dishes under their

noses. we start to eat.

I don’t even have an appetite and seeing this woman in front of me doesn’t really help.

— Is everything okay with work? , I started a discussion.

— Hmm. exhausting as you already know my dear lawyer. And otherwise, with Marie and you, everything is going well?”

I pop some fries into my mouth, and meet her curious gaze.

— We are no longer together.

Her eyes widen, not expecting this news, she wants to appear shocked and touched while deep down she is delighted… Because yes I know her game, she has already tried to seduce me. she is a beautiful woman but I am absolutely not

interested in her.

— I am really sorry for you, I hope it’s okay., she says, placing her hand against mine which she caresses.

I stare at our hands not appreciating her contact and withdraw mine.

— Speaking of Marie, isn’t that her daughter over there?” she asks, pointing at her with her chin.

I look in that direction, and indeed it’s really her…it didn’t take She’s only in this restaurant!

Sitting alone, she hasn’t noticed us yet.

Her hair tied up carelessly, a few rebellious strands frame

her face, my fingers ask to replace them correctly, caress her

soft skin, lose myself in her big eyes innocent.

She looks suddenly in our direction, my whole body tenses when her gaze meets mine. Her face turns pale, her surprised eyes drift from me to

Julia and she displays a disgusted look..no not that expression my dear !

My jaw tightens when her boyfriend appears out of nowhere, two trays in hand which he places at their table. He takes a seat next to her, having noticed us too, he gives me a murderous look, not appreciating

see me.

They then ignore us, she tastes her dish and smiles warmly at this idiot.

– You hear me ?

What does she want from me? Can’t she keep quiet?

I look away from the perfect couple and give my attention to this insufferable woman in front of me.

What do you want Xavier? You have no right to be in this state!

F**k yes it’s true but it’s stronger than me! I spat atrocities at her to keep her away from me, I behaved like a big a*****e…if she knew…I called her a child when in my eyes she is a woman in her own right and so desirable.. .she has f*****g power over me.

Seeing her with another man puts me in an out of control state.

I am jealous, yes I am atrociously, knowing that he touches her, discovers her, inhales her scent and k****s her is unbearable to me.

I want her entirely, her body and her heart. everything must belong to me.

I wanted to keep her away from me, I’m much too old for her and a bastard. I did everything to make her hate me. Besides, did she have feelings for me? There was definitely this little thing between us…I’m lost, I don’t know what to do anymore. Either I continue to wear my a*****e mask and let her slip through my fingers which is best to do, or I do everything to conquer her and make her mine.

“You haven’t eaten anything,” Julia points out.

– I have no appetite .

Her phone suddenly vibrates, which seems to me to be a message that she reads quickly.

— I have to leave Xavier with you, I have an emergency.

– You want me to come with you ?

— No thank you, I’ll be fine, my driver is waiting for me outside.

She picks up her purse, gets up from her chair and leans towards me.

My eyes widen in surprise when her lips land on mine and she k****s me as naturally as possible.

“See you soon, my darling,” she whispers before leaving the place.

Instinctively my gaze diverts towards Liya, she looks at me strangely,

she saw us, I won’t know what she is thinking. but…I hate it. It’s not

what you think my angel.

Should I do everything to keep you from belonging or let you live your life with this doctor who will make you happy? The best for you is the second option, but my sadistic side won’t allow it because you are mine..