I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 34

Gabriel’s POV

I took her to this simple restaurant, I thought it would do her good for her to go out, her and me…to put her at ease but I don’t like the result. She seemed far away and totally destroyed.

We left the place, his face expressed sadness, anger, and I don’t know what else. For several days, the smile that I so loved to see on her childish face has disappeared since she no longer lives with her mother.

No matter how hard I tried to understand what’s wrong, I did everything I could to get her to open up to me without rushing her, but she prefers to stay silent, which is starting to worry me.

Is the problem she has with her mother that serious? Is it really her mother who put her in this state? A lot of questions run through my mind but I can’t have an answer.

I already thought about going to visit Marie to talk with her, but Liya made me promise not to go. In this situation I won’t be able to, I can’t stand to see her like this and I will get answers.

For the moment I’m taking him away from the city and the deafening noise. We have been riding a motorbike for a while, she has realized that we are not going home but she makes no comment.

She just places her head on my shoulder and clings tightly to me…I love feeling her so close to my body, her warmth which warms me, her softness which bewitches me, her perfume which captivates me, absolutely I like everything about her.

After more than ten minutes of travel I finally park and we get off my bike.

She looks around with narrowed eyes and furrowed eyebrows, I hold out my hand to her, she hesitates a little then slides her palm against mine.

I caress her milky skin with my thumb, a faint smile stretches her lips.

I take off my shoes and help him take off his, we walk freely on the white sand.

We then take a seat, she encircles her knees with her arms and looks

straight ahead.

I take a place next to him, very close to his captivating body.

The sea is calm, the sound of the waves soothing, the sun lost in the sea, the golden reflections of the sky, the birds above us… all of this is so magnificent.

I contemplate her for a moment, she seems absorbed by everything around her.

Her carelessly tied hair flies in all directions, the

golden light is reflected in her large hypnotic blue eyes, the wind enjoys

carrying her natural perfume and smell into my lungs.

The landscape is splendid…

Her body is magnificent, but what is inside, her heart is also of incredible beauty and purity.

— Stop looking at me like that Gab, it’s embarrassing.

Her cheeks take on a pink tint which further increases her charm.

— You surpass all these beautiful things that surround us, how can we not

contemplate you?”

I approach her, caress her cheek with my thumb, and stare at her luscious lips. I lean towards her thus forcing her to lie down on the hot sand and place my hands on either side of his face.

My forehead against his hot one, our noses rub gently accompanied by our breathing.

— I would love it if you talked to me…I hate to see you in this state.

I place a chaste k**s on her lips and look her straight in the eyes.

— My angel, talk to me…you still don’t trust me?”

“Of course, Gabriel, but give me a little more time,”

she whispers.

Time ! Still and always ! I am patient, very patient, but I will not be able to resist for long and get used to his sadness.

— Don’t I make you happy? You don’t want to stay with me anymore? Tell me everything.

I want to know .

— NO, of course not, you are the perfect man I always dreamed of Gabriel, I am the luckiest to be by your side…the problem comes from me.

—And how can I make you forget? …that you forget for a moment all your troubles?

Her eyes fill with tears which she blinks away by closing her eyelids.

— Just stay with me Gabriel… I can’t stand you being far from

me..

— Of course, I promise you, never Liya…I will never leave you, you are mine..I love you my angel.

I capture her delicious lips and imprison them with my teeth,

enjoying running my tongue over them.

— You are the woman of my life. I plan to marry you.

I stop my words when I feel her tense beneath me. I

tenderly caress her cheeks and place k****s on her neck.

— We’ll take our time, don’t worry. .I will wait until you are ready.

My lips go lower, between her firm breasts, then her stomach as I slightly lift her T-shirt.

—And the day you bear my children I will be the happiest…I want a lot…a lot. , I said, caressing her stomach and kissing her gently which made her shiver.

She smiles at me sadly, caresses my cheeks with her soft palms without taking her eyes off me.

– Girl or boy ? What do you prefer?” she asks in her sweet voice.

– I want boys, who will be strong like me but who will inherit your beauty, and not girls, I will be enormously jealous, possessive and unbearable with them. If they look like you it will be worse, no man will approach them because they will belong to me…you drive me crazy, I am the luckiest man to have known you.

My jaw tightens and my heart clenches when tears flood her cheeks.

— Why these tears?” I asked, taking care to dry them.

— Gabriel…I don’t deserve you!…you’re perfect, the man I always dreamed of having but you deserve a girl better than me.. I.. —

Shuuut, Don’t say anything more hear me! I am not looking for a perfect and flawless woman, but rather a woman who can bring my heart and soul to life like you do. I chose you, you are the one I need, just perfect in my eyes, I whispered.

I lean towards her, k**s her tenderly, a salty taste spreads between my lips…I will do everything possible to make you the happiest and fulfilled woman, I promise to never moisten your cheeks.

The next day

It’s after 6 a.m., I have to get up to get ready but I can’t do it, still wanting to enjoy the presence of my girlfriend.

She sleeps peacefully, her sweet face buried in my neck, her breathing warms and makes my skin shiver. Dressed only in my t-shirt, her bare legs are tangled with mine, and her messy hair tickles my bare torso.

I bury my nose in his hair and breathe in his scent deeply, the

perfect remedy to put me in a good mood in the morning.

I delicately k**s his forehead,

After taking a walk in the bathroom, I get dressed quietly.

I also have to wake her up so she can get ready for class, but I don’t have the heart to do it. She sleeps deeply, she needs to recover the sleep she lost.

I then leave my room discreetly and head towards the kitchen.

I have breakfast in a hurry, not having much time left.

I then leave the kitchen and see my brother coming down the stairs.

“We need to talk,” he said in a serious tone that displeased me.

— Well, I can’t, I’m already late for my internship, we’ll talk about it when I arrive,

okay

? is going slowly, we have almost no patients this morning so I do practically nothing just sitting near the other interns and in front of me there is Laure who is in the same period as me. We have been talking for a while to pass the

time , I like her

a lot, she’s an intelligent and sweet young woman, not superficial

like the others W

She’s a beautiful brunette with black eyes, the kind of girl I liked before, yes blondes don’t like me I wasn’t really interested in until a tomboy named Liya appeared in my life to change everything.

I glance at my watch, I have about 3 hours left to finish my internship, I know that I’m wasting my time since we don’t have much to do today. I only want to replace Liya, in fact she

probably still sleeping.

—Are you leaving already? , asks Laure, curious and surprised.

“Yes, as you see, I advise you to go home too,” I said, winking at him.

— Oh no, I am a good doctor and I will wait wisely for my patients, she provokes me.

I give him a smile then leave the hospital as quickly as possible.

I ride my motorbike for about ten minutes, park outside my house and enter my cabin.

The house is quiet and lifeless, I imagine that Yanis is already at university but is Liya still sleeping?

I take the steps, go upstairs and stop in front of my room.

I am about to open the door when I hear voices, I listen and recognize Inaya’s voice, what is she doing there?

— I didn’t want all that, I swear…my mother doesn’t want to see me anymore, it’s all my fault. And Gabriel my Inaya.

— Liya damn it, I can’t stand seeing you in this state, are you going to spill the beans? , why doesn’t your mother want to see you anymore, are you going to tell me the truth?

The truth ? Which truth ?

— I..I..

I frown at his trembling voice and move closer to the door.

— I fell in love with my mother’s fiancé…

I fell in love with my mother’s fiancé…fell in love with my mother’s fiancé…with my mother’s fiancé.

I almost fall and hold myself as best I can against the wall, did I hear that correctly? F**k yes, I heard and understood, yet this sentence resonates constantly in my mind as if wanting to stab my bruised heart every second.

— yanis told my mother that I was having an affair with him, that’s why she kicked me out and I…

I no longer listen to the rest of his speech in shock.. Yanis? Connection ? I

stare at the door where it’s supposed to be, I just have to go through it, let her know that I heard everything… but not that..not now..get out of here.far from ‘She .

I rush down the steps at breakneck speed, get out of this place and climb

furiously on my bike.

I immediately drive between the alleys of my neighborhood without worrying about complaints from neighbors.

She loves this a*****e! This bastard who was supposed to belong to her mother…what kind of girl does that to the one who gave birth to her damn?

How did I not see anything? Has love made me so blind? So stupid not to see that she had no feelings for me?

I should have suspected it from the start, I knew that her father-in-law was not of sane mind, all the times he undressed her with his eyes, the day I surprised them both at her house soaking wet. , or the evening when he rushed towards her when she was choking…

I drive at high speed, totally ignoring the speed to be respected.

Liya my angel how could you do this to me? Deep down you’re not better

than the other girls but you are definitely the worst woman I’ve ever known…you disgust me. You played with my feelings, I gave you all my trust, and you knew the future I was building for us.

You dared to say you love me while looking me straight in the eyes when you’re just a slut who is having a f*****g affair with her stepfather.

My vision is blurring, I am really crying for this girl, this child and manipulator who is not worth it? I accelerate even more, my anger is growing, my contracted jaw is painful. Disappointment suffocates me, my heart squeezes hard against my ribcage. I breathe heavily.

The tears shed disappear under the violent wind that hits my face…I have to slow down, calm down…I have to do it but my anger carries me away and dominates me completely.

Her angelic face appears in my mind. you were so perfect in my eyes, I was crazy about you..why did you give me hope when I had no value in your eyes?

My head suddenly shoots backwards…I don’t immediately understand what’s happening, I no longer feel my bike, my body flies through the air, and soon I collapse violently against the ground

. hard and cold.

To God Liya..