The Elements
Am I cured?

Flame was the first one to exit the car because, and I quote, “I want to finish this stupid appointment with that crazy doctor as soon as possible.“, and I totally agree with him.

I already hate this doctor, but I hate him more now because he made me, well made Flame, drive for one hour to this elementars hospital. Apparently, he was at the academy just because Raven called the best doctors right after he found out about the invasion. I think that this was the best decision Raven has took in his entire life.

“We have an appointment with Dr, Hamilton.” Flame said to the lady at the reception with a bored tone.

She glared at him for his tone but she looked back at her computer. “Are you Shadow Thunder of Moonlight?”

“No, I’m not. I’m a boy, but this idiot is.” he said and pushed me in front of me.

“Yeah, that’s me and I have to meet with doc at 9 AM.” I replied glaring at Flame.

I have one asshole of a brother.

She typed furiously at her computer for 5 minutes and I wanted to throw her computer into a wall. “The doctor is waiting you in lab 3, floor 2.”

“Thank you, and you suck at your job. You should try to apply for a job that does not involve talking with people. Like staring like a blank wall, or killing bugs by just staring at them with that ugly face and that glare. Bye.” Flame said with a sarcastic smile and dragged me to the second floor.

I was laughing all the way to the second floor and I saw Flame smiling a little too.

I wiped away the tears that have fallen and I knocked at the lab’s door.

“Come in.”

Before I entered, I turned around and looked at Flame. “Do you want to come in too?”

He shook his head furiously. “No way in hell. That doctor bores the hell out of me. I’ll come in if it’s necessary.”

I nodded my head and walked in the lab. Doc was standing at his white desk, which was full with very well organized files. Every pile had a note on top telling about what the pile is. The lab was all white, shocking I know, and it was full with all kind of equipment.

“Miss Moonlight, please take a seat and I’ll check your heart.”

This means, lay on your back in just your sport bra, while I’ll put on you some wires and check you heart beat while all I’ll say is “Mhmm...“.

I sighed and took my shirt off, leaving me in my black sport bra, and I laid down on the hospital bed. Doc sets his wires on me and stares at the heart monitor for 5 minutes before he decided that he should check with his stethoscope too. After another 10 minutes of listening to my heart and making me turn around for at last 10 times, he finished checking me.

“So, doc, am I cured?” I asked hopefully that I will finally stop coming to this horrible place.

He surprised me by rolling his eyes at me. “In order to be cured, you had to be sick at first. And you weren’t sick.”

I blinked away my shock. “Whatever. Then, I’m fine? Can I practice, use my powers and do the old cool stuff?”

“Yes and no.”

My whole enthusiasm died when I heard that phrase.

“What do you mean with yes and no??” I almost yelled at him.

“Yes because your heart is healed, and no because after this wound, your heart will be a little sensitive at strong emotions. This means no excessive stress, anger, smoke, alcohol, or anything that can do bad to your heart.” he explain as he walked to the door, while I was speechless.

Doc opened the door and looked around. “If you are here with Miss Moonlight, I want you to come in for a second.” he said and Flame walked in with a concerned face.

“What’s wrong?” Flame asked when he saw my blank face.

“Everything is fine. Her heart healed completely, but after this she can’t be exposed to excessive stress, anger, smoke, alcohol or anything that can do bad to her heart.” doc said as he seat down in his chair.

“And that’s why?” Flame asked annoyed because that damned doctor stopped in the middle of the phrase.

“Because, apparently, after this my heart will be a little sensitive to this things. Care to fucking explain what will happen if I’m exposed to those things?” I asked glaring at doc.

“I don’t know.” was all his said.

Flame raised his eyebrow while I stared to laugh.

“YOU ARE A FUCKING DOCTOR AND YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME IF I’LL GET MAD AS FUCK???” I yelled at the doctor because I had enough of his shit.

“Yes, Miss Moonlight. I don’t know what will happen to you because I never had a case like this before. No one has survived this kind of wound and probably, if you will be exposed to one of those things, your heart will start to hurt again and you can even die.” he explained very calm while I was so mad.

“Does she has to take some pills or something?” Flame asked as he sense my bad mood.

“No. She will be fine if she avoids what I said earlier.” doc answered not even looking at us.

I jumped from that horrible bed and made my way to the exit. “Whatever. You are the most horrible doctor I have ever seen. I hope you have a good day.” I said and walked out from that place.

Is life playing a trick on me? Is someone pranking me? I’m waiting for someone to jump out of nowhere and scream ’GOT YA!’, but that won’t happen. I won’t be in this situation if that bitch wouldn’t have shoot me.

I stopped dead in my tracks.

Wait. I just said that bitch, but I don’t remember what happened......I think that my memories are coming back.

“Hey! You okay there?” I jumped in surprise when someone placed his hand on my shoulder.

“What do you think, Flame?” I said and got into the car.

My head was hurting because 1. That doctor ruined my day which stared to freaking good, and 2. I feel the memories making their way back to me, right through my skull.

“Come on, idiot. It’s not that bad.” Flame said trying to make me feel better, but it wasn’t working.

“It’s not that bad because it’s not happening to you.” I muttered and put my earphones in because I don’t feel like talking.

The blurred pictures of trees and cars run around me as I’m thinking at what happened on the field, in that day. I can’t concentrate on a single object. My mind is running at a too high speed and I can’t keep up with it, no matter how hard I try.

I sighed tired and rested my head on the window. I miss so much those nights when I would close my eyes, fall asleep, and I didn’t opened them until the second day. I miss having a decent night of sleep, without nightmares, back flashes or memories. If I’ll keep having nightmares and skipping sleep, I’ll have a major breakdown and I don’t think that anyone can handle one of my breakdowns.

The car stopped as I was almost asleep. I sighed once again, and I hate that this is what I’m doing the most recently. I dragged myself inside the house, but I went right in my room. Sparky and River tried to ask me how it was, but I just walked pass them, hoping that they will get the hint. I changed into a pair of red shorts and I decided to keep my black sport bra. I slowly climb in my bed and hide under the blanket.

After 10 minutes of trying to ignore my migraine, I decided that I should just take a damn pill. I wrapped the blanket and tip toed downstairs. I wanted to go into the kitchen, but I stopped when I heard the guys arguing.

“Are you out of your mind?? If she replaces out, we’re dead!”

Sounds like Hazel.

“She won’t.”

This one must be River.

“Trust me, she will. I won’t tell her, but she will replace out and when she will, we are screwed!”

Totally Sparky.

What are this idiots trying to do without me?

“No. She won’t replace out. She can’t replace out now or ever.”

This is Black. I’m 100% sure.

I’m so curious now.

“Black! Open your damn eyes! She will! It’s impossible not to! She will remember and everything will make sense! It’s just a matter of time.”

Wise full words from a wise full man. Ash your are damn right. My memories are already coming back.

“Until that we have to resolve this problem. We do it or not?”

“We can’t do it Sparky! Innocent people are involved!”

“I agree with you, Black, but we have to ask her first. And if we say no, what excuse we have? And she has to tell Raven why not!”

What are they talking about? Do it or not? If I agree? Excuse? Raven? What’s going on?

“I don’t know Sparky! ARE YOU HAPPY NOW? I DON’T FUCKING NOW WHAT TO DO!!”

“THEN THINK BLACK! THINK! YOU HAVE A BRAIN! USE IT!”

I had enough and I want to now what the fuck is going on.

“What the fuck are you hiding from me and what are you trying to do without me knowing?” I asked as I slammed open the kitchen’s door.

Everyone froze in his place and no one uttered a word. Some of them even paled, like Black did.

I crossed my arms over my chest. “Today guys.”

Still silence.

Wrong move my friends. Very wrong move.

“You all will tell me, what’s going on. NOW.” I yelled the last part and a lightbulb exploded.

I’m tired of hiding, I’m tired of lying, I’m tired of worrying, I’m tired of wondering what the fuck is going on. I’m tired!

“I can’t tell you.” River said and looked at me with a sad face.

“And why not?!” I barked at him.

He sighed and rubbed his face. “Because it’s not my place to tell.”

“AND THEN WHO’S PLACE IT IS? STOP PLAYING AROUND AND TELL ME!”

“It’s my place and I won’t tell you a thing.” my head snapped in Black’s direction.

A dry laugh came out of my mouth. “Uh-oh, you will. You will tell me everything or things will get very bad for you all.” I said motioning at they all.

“I won’t tell you and you won’t do a thing to them or me.” he said still not looking at me.

“I won’t bet on that Black boy. I’m the leader her and I need to know everything here. And I can do whatever the fuck I want, so start talking.” I was trying so hard not to snap and do something that I will regret later.

“Do whatever you want. I.won’t.tell.you.a.single.thing.” he said on a dead tone and looked at me with cold eyes.

It hurt to see his looking at me with that face, but I was too mad to feel it completely.

I furrowed my eyebrows and stared at him. This isn’t the first time when I see that look on his face. I think that it has to do with something that happened in that day.

“You! You are the head of all of this bullshit! And what happened to me it’s your fault too!” I pointed my finger at him.

A flash of hurt passed his eyes but he covered it up immediately. “I thought that you can’t remember what happened.”

“I don’t. But you just confirmed me that what I said, it’s true. You did something in that day. You!” I was getting angrier by the minute.

“And how the fuck you know that it’s my fault if you can’t remember! That’s right! YOU DON’T FUCKING KNOW! YOU DON’T HAVE A SINGLE CLUE!” he yelled back.

The last phrase ringed in my head and my headache became worst.

It sound familiar. That phrase sound familiar. His cold gaze looks familiar. Him. He has to do something with happened then, but what the-

“AAAAH!” I yelped in pain and held my head with my hands as I fell on the floor.

Millions of images flashed before my eyes. Millions of scenes. Millions of faces. Finally, the images, the scenes and the faces, clicked together and I remembered what happened.

I remember everything.

Black talking with Mel, his sister, about an invasion. Me, announcing Raven. In my second shift, fighting with Black, then I saw the darks coming and I announced everyone once again. The battle, how many darks were, and finally, the bullet that Mel, that fucking bitch, shoot at me.

I slowly opened my eyes. Nine heads appeared in front of me and all of them looked concerned.

“Are you okay?? What the hell just happened?” River asked and I jumped back on my feet and I pointed my finger at Black.

“It’s his fault! He knew about the invasion from his dark sister, Mel! I heard them talking while I was patrolling! And he is a dark too! He has to be one because his sister it’s one! And that bitch was the one that shoot me! She is the reason why I almost die! She! His sister!” I shouted and I was panting.

I looked at all of them waiting for a reaction, an opinion, for something!

Black was looking down with his hands in his hair, River sighed not looking at me, and the rest of them weren’t looking at me neither.

“Shadow, you have to calm down. What you heard it’s not all, but he will tell you everything right now. After you calm down, of course.” Flame said and placed a hand on my shoulder.

I wanted to laugh and cry in the same time. He wants me to calm down when my world is starting to fall apart? When they all lied to me the whole time? When he lied to me the whole time even after I almost died? When nothing makes sense anymore? When I don’t fucking know what’s going on?

“Start talking because I won’t calm down too soon. The only way to calm me down, is to give me some tranquilizers or tell me everything. There’s no in between. And, come on!! What can be more bad then this! It can’t be!” I said and I feel all the possible feeling in this whole word. Except the good ones.

I only feel hurt and betrayed because my family lied to me.