The Last Royal Luna
Chapter 41

On the drive back I called my parents and gave them a short rundown on the situation with Trixie and the guilty that I felt about them not being able to have children of their own DNA. They, of course, made me feel better about it and they had no regrets because they loved me. They did sound excited about meeting her and seeing how it went. They were a little scared to be putting a little girl in a house where she didn’t know anyone and going back through the potty-training stage but I knew they would be able to keep her safe and she would have a loving family. I had no idea how they were going to do the potty-training thing because from the stories they tell me I was hell on wheels. I told them that we would come by the next day but today we need to get the pack integrated and moved into their new housing before the barbecue starts. They had mentioned that they didn’t want to come to the barbecue just because I needed to mingle with both packs since I was in charge of both of them. They knew that I would use them as a shield and as an excuse to ignore people that made me feel uncomfortable. Damn them on their abilities to see through me.

We were almost back to the pack house when I finally made a decision to talk to the guys about something serious. I was so nervous I could feel my hands shaking and blue was a whimpering with her head down. We had heard stories about if you didn’t mate right away or shortly after with your mate that the pull became less and less and then you started to feel the pain of rejection. I hadn’t felt any pain yet but none of the guys had tried anything with me. They didn’t try to hold my hand very often and they didn’t try to k**s me even on the check. I knew they were trying to respect my space and the fact that I’m a virgin but it still makes a girl question herself and the relationship.

“Hey guys can I talk to you about something? Now I’m going to fair warn you that what I want to talk about is going to make me blush and my nerves are going to get worse but I need you guys just to bear with me. I also need you guys not to laugh at me.” All eyes on me except Blake’s because he was driving but he turned off the music so that they could all hear me clearly. I stared at the floor.

“Ryder you can talk to us about anything and we will never judge you. We will always have your back even if it’s something we don’t agree with. We can discuss it as a family and get to the bottom of it.” Blake’s statement hit my heart strings so it made me feel a little bit better. I also squealed on the inside that he called us a little family.

“Okay so with everything in our past I have decided to forgive you. I have not forgotten everything you have done but I forgive you. In the future you will not treat a girl like that again and if you see it happening, I expect you to stand up for her.” I glare it all of them except Asher. “The mate pull has gotten really strong and I’m so nervous because you all are super experienced. Hell, I’ve heard about half of your adventures with women from the women themselves. They like to make sure they said it loud enough and in as much detail in the locker room that I know where your freckles are and the little tattoo that Andrew likes to hide.” His eyes widened in shock.

“You know about that? I don’t… I don’t know what to say. First thing is that I got that tattoo after losing a dare to Blake and Richard. They have matching one’s so you will be seeing double of them. Also I’m sorry that they spoke about it and I’m sorry that us being experienced makes you feel so nervous. If I had known that my mate would be someone like you and the feeling of being even near my mate would feel like this I wouldn’t have done as much as I did. I can’t promise I would have stayed a virgin because s*x is nice. And I would have felt really insecure kind of like you do if I didn’t know what I was doing. I just want to please you inside and outside of the bedroom.” The other two nodded in agreement and they all looked sad. I was starting to blush and feeling bad at the same time.

“I don’t want you guys to regret your past. I just need to get this off my chest so that we can move forward and our relationship. I want more. I know you guys have been giving me my space because I’m a dang virgin and the things in our past but it’s making me question everything. I need the hand holding, I need the k****s, I need arms around me, hugs, and I need all three of you in bed with me at night. I don’t know how to make that happen or how comfortable that will be but that is how it is going to be from now on.” I took a deep breath, and my cheeks were already going redder before explaining the next step I wanted to take. “I think it’s time that we completed the mating bonds…” I let that little tidbit just drop and I waited in silence. None of them moved and none of them spoke for a couple minutes so I definitely started to even question whether they still wanted me or not.

“I am so in. I have wanted to see you naked since probably middle school. It will be even better seeing your o****m face. I just want you to know that even when I was treating you like crap I thought you were very attractive. That sounds stupid now that I’ve said it but I need you to know it. Who goes first?” Of course, it’s Andrew who makes this stupid statement and I just roll my eyes at him. I can hear Blake and Asher snickering in the front.

“Probably not you now stupid. It’s a wonder you even got laid ever in your life with how the crap falls out of your mouth.” Asher shoves into Andrew’s arm. They both stick their tongue out each other and just laugh.

“So I only know about different werewolf traditions from the literature my parents have gotten hold of and from them their experiences with packs. I only thought you could have one mate but obviously not. So I don’t know the rules of this but in my mind since I’ll be losing my virginity I would like all of you to be there.” I looked at the floor for a second before whipping my head to face them with a scowl on it. “No I’m not saying that all holes are up for business so keep that in mind. There is one that is CLOSED for business, misters. I would just like it to be a group experience and it would keep my mind super busy so I can ignore the insecurities.” My face was officially the color of a cherry.

Asher pulls me into his lap and rehooks his seat belt around both of us. He starts to nuzzle my neck and he puts his arms around me. I’m sitting with my chest to his chest and my thighs on either side of his. I can feel how hard he is beneath me and it instantly makes me feel better. It makes me feel wanted and I can feel blue purring. I try not to squirm but I don’t think it is working with the look of l**t in Asher’s face.

“Ryder when we make it back to the pack we have a lot to do but tonight even if we don’t do anything together let us show you how much we care for you. We would love to please you and take care of you every need. I want to treat you like the Alpha you are and show you how much I need you.” Blake said in a loud whisper full of promises and l**t. I shivered and pressed myself down harder on Asher’s lap. He growled holding me in place.

“What if I suck in bed? What if you realize that you would rather someone who could m**n in the right spot or knows where to put their hands?” I hide my face in Asher’s neck not really wanting to hear the response. I know I should be more confident than this but this is scary for me.

“I wouldn’t care if you laid there like a dead fish because you’re my mate. All I want, see, or need is you. Plus I know you will be amazing. I have seen you fight so with your agility, attention to detail, and special curse words I think you will be the best ever.” Asher growls the last part into my ear but my other two mates hear it and growl in agreement.

“Ok. Let’s take care of business, have some fun with the packs, and have some fun together.” I smile and look at all of them. I wish we could just head back to Andrew’s room and take this to the next level but I had responsibilities. Dang adulting stinks sometimes.