The Werewolf King’s Runaway Queen
Chapter 104

Alissa's

POV

I looked out of the window from Luke and I's room.

It's been a while since I saw sunlight.

It feels like I'm hibernating.

I watched the pups play and a tear escaped my eye and I quickly wiped it away.

My child could've been playing with them.

I could've been holding my cholf outside in my arms under the sunlight in the morning.

I could've been one of those mothers looking after their child.

That could've been me but I lost my child.

It still feels like I was constantly shattering inside.

I don't know how much more I could break.

I didn't know when or if I'll ever be able to recover from the death of my first child.

How do women who suffer from miscarriage live again?

How do they replace the will to wake up in the morning and do anything except cry?

How do they get the strength to start over?

I felt clueless.

This was my first pregnancy and my first miscarriage.

I am completely clueless as to how I'm supposed to handle all of this.

I don't know whether I should or shouldn't.

My heart still feels heavy and everyday I feel like I'm suffocating.

I feel like I'm drowning in darkness.

I want to live, I do. For my baby. For Reeva.

But it's hard.

I never thought that I could ever grieve like this. It was even worse from when I lost my dad.

A tear fell from my eye and I quickly wiped it away before going back to bed.

I sat on the bed again like I usually do then I glanced at the bedside table and stared at the note there.

Hey, beautiful. I'll be in my office if you need anything. I'm here for you always

-Your Husband, Luke

Luke always leaves notes like this every morning. It's become part of his routine for like the past week.

I never knew he was capable of doing these kinds of things but I guess suffering a loss does a lot of things in a person.

Luke rarely goes out for work nowadays.

He told me once that he lets the twins or hid parents meet up with other packs outside while he stays behind so he could be here for me.

I've become nothing but a burden to Luke and to this family and I know it.

I sighed and laid down in bed.

But I couldn't fall asleep no matter what I do so I sat back up.

I contemplated on calling Luke but I knew he'd be busy.

As far as I know, he's not only working on territory problems but he's also working on the rogue attack case that happened.

As I remembered that day, I felt cold and then suddenly angry. Livid even.

I closed my eyes shut as I clenched my fists and took deep breaths.

Luke is working on the case.

I opened my eyes again and went to the bathroom.

I took a quick shower, got dressed into a hoodie and sweatpants after drying my hair.

I walked over to the door and I stood there for a moment before holding the door knob.

I took a deep breath and twisted it opening the door.

As soon as I did, the 2 guards standing outside looked at me in shock.

I avoided eye contact and casually walked out and made my way to Luke's office.

The guards followed me soon enough until I reached Luke's office and I knocked.

"Who is it?" the frustrated voice asked from inside.

I opened the door.

"I said who is it-?"

Luke lifted his head up and our eyes met.

His eyes widened in surprise.

"Alissa" he said and stood up then went to me.

Luke held me.

"What is it?" he asked softly.

I glanced at his desk.

"The rogue case" I said.

Luke looked at me for a moment.

"I want to see" I said and Luke understood.

Luke closed the door and led me to a seat.

I quietly sat down as Luke grabbed a few folders and stood in front of me.

"Do you really want to-"

"Yes" I cut him off.

Luke sighed and nodded before putting the documents down.

I stared at it for a moment contemplating if I really wanted to do this.

What will I gain from this?

Will this give me peace of mind?

Or will it make everything even worse?

I bit my lower lip.

"Alissa..." Luke said.

I reached for the documents and opened it.

Inside were logs from before that day, on that day and onwards.

I took the log and scanned through it.

Luke just stood in front of me and I looked up at him.

"You should get back to work" I said.

Luke looked at me for a moment and sighed then gave me a kiss on the top of my head before going back to his chair.

I studied the log on my own.

3 days before the attack - no rogues in the territory were reported.

2 days before the attack - no rogues in the territory were reported.

A day before the attack - a single teenage rogue was reported by the border. Rogue was let off.

My brows furrowed.

A teenager? Just by the border and not inside?

I looked at the log of that day in a different log book to see what else happened that day.

Nothing seemed off but my gut feeling told me otherwise.

-morning: secret passage in the south in need of repair

-noon: repair sent to south passage

Then, there were no more update after that.

I looked at the day of rogue attack and none of the notes said that the passage was repaired.

Repair was sent out but there was no update after that so I flipped through the next pages of the days.

About 2 weeks into the day of the rogue attack, I saw a report that made my fists clench.

-night: south secret passage in need of repair

Next day...

-morning: repair sent to south secret passage

-noon: south passage repaired

There were different wolves who checked on the passage after the attack but the same wolf was in charge of the report about the passage before the attack. Also, the repair men who fixed the south passage was written in the log from after the attack but no names of the repair men were written before the attack. That means that aside from the ambush by the borders, the rogues also got inside through the passage.

That's how they were able to get inside without going through the guards.

That's how the were in the woods without anyone knowing.

My heart sank inside my chest as I started realizing something.

This was an inside job.

I stood up and Luke looked at me.

I walked over to him and put the documents down.

"It was an inside job, wasn't it?" I said.

Luke looked at me for a moment and nodded.

My blood boiled immediately.

"Did you replace the traitor yet?" I asked.

"Unfortunately, no. The guard that was in the logs who was first in charge of checking the south passage was reported missing a day after the attack and reported dead after 2 weeks" Luke explained. My brows furrowed. "And the body?" I asked.

"It was eaten by wild animals and decomposed" he said.

I bit my lower lip and clenched my fists as I looked away from Luke.

Luke stood up and went behind me and hugged me from the back.

"Right now, we don't have much information. At least not yet. But everyone is working hard to get to the bottom of this" Luke assured me.

"We need to replace whoever is behind this. The least we can give to our child is justice" I said.

Luke nodded.

"I know, baby. I know" he said and planted a kiss on top of my head.

Luke hugged me a little longer until I said I wanted some fresh air.

"I'll come with you" he said.

I shook my head.

"I'd rather be alone. I'm sorry" I said and Luke sighed but agreed and nodded.

He gave me a kiss on the forehead and I made my way out of his office.

Instead of going to the balcony, I went downstairs and out of the Palace.

I haven't been out in so long and the faces on the helpers when they saw me earlier seemed like they saw a ghost.

Maybe I have become that at some point of my grieving.

I didn't go to the woods.

The sight of it made me hurl and shiver in fear.

I used to love going through the woods but not anymore.

To me, the woods is now a place of loss.

I went to the garden instead. One of the few places that I last spent my time with my child.

I felt like my legs were slightly cramping even though I haven't walked for a long time.

Must be because I never really got out of the bed.

I was in the garden for a while when Luke suddenly came rushing to me.

I looked at him curiously.

"Alissa, you should get back to your room" he said.

I tilted my head to the side out of curiosity.

"A few Alphas are coming in a few minutes. I'd prefer it if you're in the safety of our bedroom" he said.

I looked at him for a moment and nodded.

Luke gave me a kiss on the top of my head and he had my guards escort me back inside.

Just before I could go inside, I saw a few cars arrive.

My guards and I walked back to my room and 2 more guards were added to my security but I didn't complain.

I stayed in my room like I usually do.

About half an hour passed by I felt something strange inside of me.

I felt like something was incredibly off but I couldn't quite point out what it was.

I felt uneasy.

I then rushed to the bathroom and threw up because I felt so sick to my stomach?

What is this feeling?

A pair of guards burst into my room and checked up on me.

After making sure I was fine, they were going to station themselves outside again.

But I just had a feeling that I couldn't shake off so I plotted to leave the room.

I asked each and every guard for a task.

Since they were sure that I wouldn't leave my room since I haven't in so long, they just did as they were told.

I sneaked to Luke's office again.

For some reason, I felt the need to look for Luke.

But he wasn't in his office so I made my way to the conference room in the Palace.

I stealthily avoided the helpers and all.

Except Luke wasn't there either.

My brows furrowed and I felt even worse that earlier.

Could Luke be in danger?

I closed my eyes and tried to figure out where he was through our mate bond then I followed my instinct.

After some time, I reached a hallway and at the end of the hallway was a guest room.

It was a part in the Palace that was barely used so not a lot of people came her.

I walked to the guest room at the end and stopped just a few feet away from the door.

"What the hell are you doing here?" Luke growled.

"You have no right coming back here. You are no longer part of this territory. You've disassociated yourself from here a long time ago. You can't just come back as you please" he said in an angry tone.

I waited for the voice of the other party but I couldn't hear it from this distance.

I stepped closer to the door.

"Don't you like it that I'm back, babe? Don't you want me back?" a woman's voice said.

The voice was familiar.

Too familiar.

"If you had just come back to me then. This wouldn't have happened. I wouldn't have needed to do all of this"

Then, it came crushing down on me.

That voice.

It was the same voice from that day.

"If only you remained missing. This wouldn't have happened. I wouldn't have needed to do this"

I couldn't breathe properly once I realized who it was.

"Get the fck away from me and what the hell do you mean?!" Luke shouted.

"What I mean is, you should have chosen me, Luke. You should have chosen me over that excuse of a wife that you have. If you chose me from the start, then I wouldn't have come here to you"

I felt sick to my stomach.

Who is she? What is she to Luke?

"Choose you? Are you fcking mental? Do you seriously think I'd choose you over my mate?!" Luke screamed.

"You did it before when we got into a relationship and you did it again before your wedding. Why can't you do it again now?" Relationship?

Before the wedding?

What?

"Being in a relationship with you was a mistake. And you manipulated me in seeing you before my wedding" Luke said.

I bit my lower lip as my eyes teared up.

So he did see her before the wedding.

His ex. He saw her.

"I simply encouraged you to see our son, Luke. You wanted to see him and that's why you came. You wanted to see us. Don't deny it"

My breath hitched.

Son?

I felt like I was choking. My knees started to give out but I forced myself to get out of there.

I don't know how but I managed to get out of there and my guards and helpers found me. Then, there was darkness.