The Werewolf King’s Runaway Queen
Chapter 103

Luke's POV

It's been 3 weeks since Alissa suffered from a miscarriage.

Everyone has been miserable since then but not as miserable as my wife.

Alissa barely sleeps or eat. She spends most of her time in our room and cries.

What's worse is that she's become...suicidal.

It happened once in the hospital and it can happen again.

She's unstable.

It's hard seeing her like this.

I hate seeing her slip away from us but I couldn't do anything about it.

The investigation about what happened is still on going. It was difficult to determine who was behind the attack and it's still not clear what the motive actually is.

I haven't been getting much sleep either but I try my best to keep myself in good condition for Alissa.

Atleast one of us needs to be stable enough to keep things going.

I worked for a while and then I decided to check on my wife.

I left my office and made my way to our room.

I stood there for a moment and took a deep breath before opening the door.

When, I opened it, the room was dark like it usually was since we got here from the hospital.

It seemed like it was always night in our room these days.

A lot of wolves died in the attack and a lot were injured.

A lot of people lost a family member and whenever I remembered it, I blamed myself for not being here.

It was so sudden and the amount of rogues involved in the attack was unexpected.

Rogues don't usually have such a big number in group but this specific rogue group was.

And they didn't move randomly as well.

They had a system. A plan.

That's why they were able to infiltrate the Palace so well.

There's an insider. I'm sure of it.

I walked over to the bed and saw Alissa there.

She's staring at the wall as usual and I sighed seeing her empty eyes even in the dark.

I sat beside her on the bed.

"Ali" I called out softly but she didn't look at me.

I always try to talk her whenever I can but I rarely get a response from her.

I held my wife's hand but she didn't respond either. I gently squeezed it and she glanced at me for a moment then looked at the wall again.

I sighed and stood up.

"I'll be back later" I said and planted a kiss on the top of her head.

I walked out of the room and closed it then I leaned by the door as tears fell escaped my eyes.

I never would have expected this to happen to us.

Having kids so soon wasn't part of our plan but when we found out that Alissa was pregnant, it was one of the happiest news we've ever received. And losing our child...losing our child made us feel like our world crumbled down on us.

I'm grieving too. I'm in pain too.

But I know that Alissa was more in pain than I was because she was the one carrying our baby and she was the one who suffered the miscarriage. Although it's not her fault, she will constantly think she is.

But I know it isn't her fault. No one would have thought that all of this would happen.

I just hope that in time, she understands that because we all know that.

I wiped my tears away and headed downstairs and out of the Palace.

I need to tire myself out a bit.

I walked to the training hall and quickly got changed into some training clothes.

Then, I started training by my own on the side.

I'll get back to work once I finish a few drills.

Some time later, I stopped and I looked outside to see that it was already dark.

I sighed and quickly got changed then headed back to the Palace.

Then, I went to a guest room and used the bathroom there to shower.

After I showered and got changed, I headed back to Alissa and I's room and I went inside after a knock.

Only the lamp was open making it the only source of light in the room.

I walked over to the bed again and sat beside Alissa.

"Do you want to have dinner with me? I'm sure that everyone is waiting for you downstairs like the usual" I asked softly.

Alissa didn't answer.

My family and I and even Alissa's family comes over for dinner and wait for my wife to join us.

We always hope she does but she doesn't so I always end up bringing her food and trying to make her eat the most I can make her eat.

It's obvious how much Alissa's body changed since she got confined in the hospital and in our room.

Her face and neck seems a lot more slimmer meaning she's lost weight, her pale face and lips and her empty eyes.

This wasn't the Alissa that I know and I knew that by every passing day, I was losing her.

I wish I could take the pain away. I wish I could just assure her that everything was going to be okay.

But it's impossible to do that id she refuses to communicate.

I sighed when Alissa didn't answer.

"I'll get your dinner for you" I said and walked out.

I walked downstairs and to the kitchen to see my family and Alissa's waiting.

I saw how their faces fell when I shook my head and they didn't see Alissa with me.

They sighed and got their food as I grabbed mine and Alissa's.

"She really refuses to come down?" my mom asked.

"She doesn't even respond to me, mom" I said.

"How is she doing, Luke?" Alissa's mom asked.

I looked at her apologetically.

"I'm sorry" I said and she sighed.

"I should head up and try to make her eat atleast" I said and they nodded.

I made my way up again.

Here we go again.

I went up with Alissa's food.

I reached our room and went inside then opened the lights.

Alissa looked at me and frowned.

"You have to eat" I said.

Alissa just stared at me.

"Ali, you need to eat. You can't keep starving yourself" I told her.

"I don't have an appetite" she said then continued to ignore me.

I sighed.

"Alissa, please. Even just a little. A few bites maybe. Please" I begged her.

She didn't lisyen to me and just stared at the wall again.

I massaged the bridge of my nose in frustration.

"If you're going to keep doing this, I'll need to ask the doctor to put an IV bag on you because you refuse to keep yourself alive" I said. Again, no response.

I bit my lower lip and sat on the bed after putting the tray down.

"Alissa, please. I'm begging you" I said.

Still, no response.

I got up and walked out of the room.

I walked tobthe end of the hallway then I screamed.

I screamed in frustration.

I punched, kicked and banged my head on the wall as I shouted.

I didn't know what else to do.

I can't help Alissa if she refuses to be helped.

After some time, I got my phone and called the family doctor.

Then, I went back to our bedroom.

I took the food tray and left.

I waited for the doctor to come and as I waited, Lia came and she walked over to me.

"We finished preparing for the burial. We can do it by tomorrow. Is that okay?" she asked.

I nodded.

"It's fine" I todl her.

Lia nodded and left again to prepare for tomorrow.

Tomorrow, there will be a burial for the wolves that died during the rogue attack.

The bodies of the rogues were already take care of days ago.

We just burned them as they deserved it.

About hald an hour later, the family doctor came.

I went to the bedroom with her where Alissa was and I watched her put an IV on Alissa.

This was the only way that we could put proper nutrition in her body.

I didn't like iy but it was the only way at the moment.

I wanted to keep my wife alivr even if she was already giving up.

"Your highness" the doctor came to me.

"I've been meaning to tell you about your child but only got the chance now" she said.

I glanced at Alissa and realized she was paying attention for the first time as our child was mentioned.

"Do you have anything to say, Ali?" I asked.

Alissa pursed her lips.

"What about Reeva?" she said.

"We haven't told you the gender of the baby yet" the doctor said.

Alissa bit her bottom lip.

"And?" Alissa said.

"Reeva is a girl" the doctor said.

Alissa teared up.

My heart clenched inside my chest.

I had a daughter.

Our Reeva.

After that, the doctor excused herself.

Alissa and I were both quiet at first then she suddenly started sobbing.

I immediately went to her and hugged her.

Alissa cried hard.

She cried so hard that she ended up passing out.

It hurt seeing her in so much pain but I was glad that she could rest even if she was forced to.

I tucked Alissa in the bed then left the room.

I made my way out of the Palace and went to the training halls.

I need somewhere to vent in alk of this pent up frustration.

I reached the training hall and started training myself until I was out of breath.

Even as I was out of breath, I kept going.

I pushed myself beyond my limits until I dropped to my knees.

Then, I rolled on my back as I stared at the ceiling.

I thought about what the doctor sais earlier.

We had a daughter.

Our Reeva is a girl.

We could've had a Princess.

Tears streamed down my face and I close my eyes shot.

We could've had a Princess.

We could've had a daughter.

I bit my lower lip and covered my eyes with my arm.

I started sobbing as I thought about it.

It hurts so bad.

I didn't just lose my child.

I also lost my wife in the process.

I felt helpless.

I felt vulnerable.

I didn't know what to do.

The pain was too much to handle so I chose to set it aside.

But sometimes it still gets to me.

My heart felt like it was going to explode any second.

I cried quietly until I was too tired to cry more.

When I opened my eyes, I saw uncle Rainer.

"Hey, kid" he greeted me.

I got up.

"How long have you been watching me?" I asked as I looked up at him while I was sitting on the floor.

"Long enough" he said.

I sighed.

Uncle Rainer helped me up.

"What's wrong? Well, aside from everything else. Is there something else that's going on that I need to know abou?" he asked.

I bit my lower lio and looked at him.

"We were supposed to have a daughter" I said.

Uncle Rainer looked at me confused.

"Alissa's doctor came by today. She said that Reeva is a girl" I explained.

Uncle Rainer sighed and he gave me a pat on the back.

I sighed as well.

"I already know how you're doing. How's Alissa?" he asked.

"She's even worse. She passed out from crying" I said.

Uncle Rainer sighed again.

He didn't say anything more except.

"Do you want to have a beer together?" he asked.

I slightly chuckled and nodded.

He gave me a pat on the back and pulled me out of the training halk and to his own cabin.

We had beer and I tried to keep my head clear for a moment.

I'll come back later to the Palace and continue trying to replace the culprit of the attack.

That's the only way I'll be able to actually rest.