The Werewolf King’s Runaway Queen
Chapter 122

Alissa Soleil's POV

The 2nd day of the outreach program passed like a breeze.

After the last few patients, we started to pack up our personal belongings and helped pack the whole area.

Once that was all done, the people we helped thanked us and brought us little gifts.

We accepted them because it was their way of saying thank you.

We waved our patients goodbye and Calum and I went straight to the back yet again.

We were going back to the hotel to wash up and get our things then we'll head back to the city.

I couldn't wait to go home to see Ma.

And well, get away from this place.

It was fun helping other people and all but I'm constantly anxious now that Luke might suddenly show up again for whatever reason.

He didn't show up today and thank god for that.

Calum kept me by his side the whole day since we were both cautious that Luke might suddenly come again.

It's unfortunate how even now, he manages to cause me so many problems.

I hate it so much.

"You okay?" Calum asked me.

I nodded.

"Never been better" I said and he chuckled.

The bus drove back to the hotel and I just stared at the window the whole time.

Suddenly seeing Luke reminded me of everyone else.

My brother.

My mom and Axel.

Aunt Livi and uncle Luan.

Lucas and Liana.

Uncle Rainer.

I never forgot about them.

I kept photographs of them in secret so I'm reminded of how they look.

The only person I refuse to remember was Luke and he ended up being the one I see.

Bryan is all grown up by now.

I wonder how he looks.

I wonder if he hates me for leaving again after I promised I wouldn't.

Maybe that's one of the few regrets that I have.

The fact that my own brother hates me makes me want to cry.

I closed my eyes and bit my lower lip.

I'm sorry, Bryan.

I never wanted to hurt or disappoint you.

But I just couldn't bear the pain of staying.

I wish I could've atleast said goodbye.

But I couldn't even do just that.

I felt myself tear up so I looked up.

"Soleil?" Calum called me and I turned to him and buried my face on his chest without a word.

"Soleil..." he said softly as he held me.

Calum held me the whole ride back and he only let me go when everyone else was already out of the bus. "It's okay now" he said and I lifted my head up.

Calum sighed when he saw me then we both looked at his shirt that had a wet stain from my tears.

We both chuckled.

"What is it? What did you think about that made you suddenly cry?" he asked worried.

I bit my lower lip and sighed.

"My little brother" I said.

"Well, my younger brother. I doubt he's very little anymore after 13 years" I said.

Cal nodded in understanding.

"I understand that you must miss him" he said.

"I do. I miss him. Every single day" I said.

Cal smiled at me sadly and hugged me and I hugged him back for comfort.

After a few more minutes, we finally got off and Cal and I went to the dining hall where everyone else was to eat first.

We sat on the table that was separated from the others.

I'm sure my eyes were puffy and red for crying so I didn't want anyone to see that and get questioned.

Cal got both of our food and then we ate together.

After dinner, we went back up to our hotel room.

I packed up my luggage and Calum also packed up his.

Once we were done, Cal carried both our luggage and we got in the elevator and went to the ground floor.

We then placed our luggage on the bus and got in.

It was already night time.

Cal and I were tge first ones to get on the bus and went to our usual spot.

Calum gave me a neck pillow and a blanket then offered me his shoulder so I leaned on him and closed my eyes.

"I didn't get to ask" he suddenly said.

"Ask what" I asked with my eyes closed.

"Did you feel relieved when you finally told me about you?" he asked.

"I did" I answered.

"Why didn't you tell me sooner?" he asked further.

"I didn't want to scare you off" I answered with a yawn.

"Why would you think that?" he said.

"Because I'm not the person you got to know for 13 years" I said.

"You're still you. Just even more special and unique than you already are" he stated.

I smiled a little.

"Soleil" he said.

"Mhhh?" I responded with a hum.

"I'll always love you. You know that right?" he said.

I smiled sleepily.

"I know" I said.

Then, I felt Cal's lips on my forehead.

"Rest. I know this weekend has been eventful and draining" he said.

"Thank you" I said sleepily before falling asleep.

I woke up a few times during stop overs.

Calum would wake me up to ask me if I needed to use the bathroom and then he accompanied me when I actually had to use it. Not inside though.

If I didn't have to use the bathroom, we either stayed in the bus or went to a store and got snacks.

It was a fun bus ride home.

We arrived really early in the morning in front of the hospital.

I was awake then and Calum was asleep so I needed to wake him up this time.

"Cal" I called and lightly tapped his cheek.

He was sleeping on my shoulder.

"Calum, wake up" I said.

Cal opened his eyes and looked around.

"We're here" he stated and I nodded.

"Come on" I said.

"Auntie asked one of your family drivers to drive us back to our homes" I said.

Cal sleepily got up and we walked out of the bus.

We took our luggage and Cal's family driver picked us up.

"Soleil" Cal said.

"Hmm?"I responded with a hum.

"Why don't you stay at my place for the mean time? Ma isn't in your home until later, right?" he said.

"I'm picking up Ma at like 9:00am so I'm going to be alone for only 5 hours. I'll be fine, Cal" I told him.

"Are you sure? Should I stay at your place instead?" he suggested.

I shook my head.

"It's fine, Cal. You don't have to worry about me. I'm safe in my own home" O told him.

Cal sighed and nodded.

After some time, we arrived at my house and the driver got my luggage for me and Cal got down as well to see me off.

"Are you really sure? I can stay with you if you need me to" he said.

"Cal, I'm really fine. I'll get some rest, pick up Ma and I'll see you in the hospital before lunch time" I told him.

Calum nodded and I gave him a kiss on the cheek before going inside and waving him goodbye.

I closed and locked the door and went straight to my room.

Once I was in my bedroom, I locked it as well.

I put my luggage down and sat on my bed.

I already slept a lot in the bus but I still feel really tired.

I laid down on the bed and stared at the ceiling.

Then, I turned my head to look at my closet.

I bit my lower lip as I contemplated on looking at it.

Then, I sat up and walked over to my closet.

From the back of my closet, I took out a red box.

I went to my bed with it and opened it.

There were photographs of my loved ones and little tokens that reminded me of them.

I teared up as I went through it.

It was my choice to leave and I deserve the pain and guilt that I'm feeling for leaving them behind.

Tears streamed down my face as I cried quietly.

I reminisced for some time then packed the box up again and returned it to the back of my closet.

But then, a small black box fell as I was returning the other box.

I froze as I looked at it.

Then, I slowly picked it up.

I felt like I was suffocating as I looked at it.

But at the same time, there was an urge to open it.

So I did. I opened it.

I bit my lower lip as I saw my wedding ring inside along with Luke and I wedding photo.

These were the only items that I kept that really reminded me of Luke.

I've been meaning to get rid of it for so long but couldn't.

I'm supposed to hate this man.

Despise him after everything he's put me through.

I shouldn't feel anything else for him but ...I just don't know.

I'm convinced that despite the rejection, and my 'death', there's still something there.

Something that I didn't want to be there.

Specially not after 13 years.

Maybe the only way it could actually disappear was if he accepted the rejection.

But I can't do that now.

I'm no longer Alissa Ford.

I'm Soleil Ellis now.

It's obvious that Luke hasn't moved on but I can't be like that.

I can't. I shouldn't.

I sighed and put the box away where I won't be able to see it again which was farther back in my closet.

As soon as I laid down and closed my eyes, I fell asleep.

Then, I found myself in a meadow and I looked around.

"Alissa"

I looked at the Sun God as he made his way towards me.

He smiled at me and I smiled back at me.

It's been a while since I last saw the Sun God.

He stood in front of me and I slightly bowed my head to him.

"How have you been?" he asked as he caressed my hair.

"I'm doing quite well. I have just returned from a medical outreach program" I said.

The Sun God nodded.

"And what has happened in this medical outreach?" he asked.

I gulped.

"I...uhm...I saw my old mate" I said.

The Sun God nodded.

"Interesting. And how do you feel about that?" he asked

I bit my lower lip.

"I don't know" I said quietly.

"Hm" he reacted.

I looked at him nervously and he gave me an assuring smile.

"Do you wish to never see him again?" he suddenly asked.

I was a bit taken aback.

I didn't know what to say.

Was that what I wanted?

I always wished to never see him again.

But why...

Why does it feel wrong now.

"I...I'm not sure about that" I said.

The Sun God just looked at me for a moment.

Then, he gave me a small smile and a pat on the head.

"Nevermind that. You are allowed to be acquainted with anyone you want" he said.

"But remember. You're no longer just the Alissa you were before. You're no longer just a werewolf. You have a responsibility to me and to my own people. That's the price you had to pay to live another life" he said. I gulped and nodded in understanding.

Then, the Sun God leaned in and planted a kiss on the top of of my head.

I closed my eyes and once I opened them, I was back in the room and the ray of sunlight escaping through the gap of my curtains slightly hit my eyes.

I sighed and sat up.

I looked at the clock and saw that it was a little past 8:00am.

I need to pick Ma up.

I showered and got dressed.

I'll chat a bit with Callie and eat out with Ma then I'll need to head off to the hospital and I'll be there until 6:00pm.

I got dressed in a white ribbed knit tank top and beige solid zip up straight pants and white heeled sandals.

I let my hair down and put some makeup on my face.

Then, I grabbed my stuff and went out to pick Ma up.

I stood by the doorway as I looked around.

This is my life now.

I'm happy and contented with it.

I don't have to associate myself with my past.

I chose this.

But how is it still hard to let it all go?