Waited For The Luna
Chapter 14

The next morning.

I couldn’t get much sleep that night. My boyfriend is b***d-related to my mate. The moon goddess really is playing a trick on me. The thoughts played on and on in my head, and the fact that they’re both alphas just makes me the antagonist in both packs.

Luka needs to reject me soon if he doesn’t want a war to wage on two packs. But the thought of him rejecting me felt suffocating already.

Not wanting to be entangled with a huge mess anymore I went to the packhouse to light a candle for the moon goddess and said my prayers.

‘Moon Goddess hello! Uhm I know I’ve said a few words about your matchmaking abilities. But I know for a fact that you made a mistake in tying my soul with Luka. Maybe you were tired or distracted that day. I really think it was all a misunderstanding. Please cut my ties with him since he doesn’t want to reject me. And please stop messing with me any longer.’

After saying my prayers, I left for school.

A month went by and it was almost graduation. Every after-school Collin and I would hang out at our house and he’d help me with my homework. I could say our relationship has improved within the few weeks. Noah tolerates our relationship but I knew he was kinda disappointed about our plans to mark even though we weren’t mates. Dad being protective is civil with Collin. Since he’s an alpha I’d have to move to his pack, breaking my promise to work with him in our pack’s hospital.

By now the school and the pack were preparing for the end of the year already. Our graduation also coincides with the b***d moon. A special event for us. It’s like our Christmas eve.

Some werewolves replace their mates during the b***d moon. Most try to breed during that night as it symbolizes fertility to mated werewolves. In short, it’s a haze of l**t and passion. The b***d moon is a gift from the goddess. She paints the moon with her own b***d every once in a while to shower our kind with strength and prosperity.

Everyone seems to be excited about this. But I just wished the moon goddess would grant my prayers anytime soon.

After exiting my car I ran towards my first class before Luka took my wrist and took me to the back building.

“Luka White! Don’t you dare take me to yours and Ellies make out den!” I screamed while trying to pull out from his grip.

He then shoved me into a wall at a garden located in the building and looked into my eyes. Is he finally going to reject me?

“I Luka White future Alpha of White Moon Pack reject you—- Bellamy.“ He stopped and blinked his eyes he opened his mouth but couldn’t continue.

He then hugged me tightly, brushing my hair with his hand before saying “I can’t do it. I can’t reject you. Collin will have to challenge me before he gets you.” He said shaking his head. I was shocked to my core. Why wouldn’t he let me go?

He then kissed me. Dominantly and passionately. I kissed him back and kept my hands on his neck as he snaked one hand to my waist and one hand cupping my cheek. It felt so right but I didn’t want to betray my boyfriend.

Getting eaten by guilt, I broke off the k**s and twisted my head to speak. “Luka I can’t!” I said. He wasn’t keeping his lips out of my body and kissed me on the cheeks then to my neck.

“Is it because of Collin?” He dangerously said.

“He’s my boyfriend Luka. He’ll mark me as soon as you reject me.” I then pushed him.

“I’m not rejecting you! I told you he’ll have to challenge me to death!” He was extremely angry by the sound of his voice.

“Just let me go, Luka! Collin. He protects me and makes me feel secured. He makes me happy.” I said with tears in my eyes.

He looked at me and I could see tears in his eyes.

“I really like him, Luka. He’s nothing like you. You hurt me and let your friends hurt me. You deliberately hurt me by making love with another girl. You don’t know how painful that felt! The day I found out you were my mate was the most painful day of my life. I can’t love someone whose main goal is to make my life miserable.”

He then held my hand and cupped both my cheeks, leaning his forehead to mine. “Can’t we just leave everything in the past? Tell me how I can make it up to you. I’d pay for the rest of our lives. Let’s start over Bellamy! I’m gonna take care of you from now on. I would never do anything to hurt you again. Bellamy I love you, I need you!”

He hugged me as he said those words. It sounded like his voice spoke only of the truth with sincerity raw in his eyes. But I didn’t want to get fooled again.

“No Luka! This is not love! This is nothing but a mistake. If I wasn’t your mate, would you have stopped hurting me?” I asked. His eyes filled with pain as I said those words. He was left speechless.

“These are all attractions. This is nothing but an illusion. Humans can choose who they love, why can’t we? Why do we have to stay in a toxic binding relationship all our life? This is nothing but a curse!”

“You don’t know what you’re saying Bellamy.” He said in a low voice. He let me go, but I wanted him to hold me longer. “I completely do.”

“I-I- I wouldn’t know.” He stuttered. “I wouldn’t know if I’d stop hurting you if you weren’t my mate. But you are now and my attitude towards you before is hunting me now. All I can do is give you my sincerest apologies for how I acted in my past. As for the what-ifs and what could’ve been if I wasn’t mated to you, I honestly don’t know. I don’t know what to say but to leave it unknown. I could only focus on what I feel for you now. I love you and I’m sorry, I can only promise to make it up to you for the rest of our lives. Just try to forgive me, slowly, in a year, a decade. Just never ask me to reject you.” Was this his declaration of love? It sounded so comforting.

But I can’t be deceived. “Luka, plea—“

“I would take accountability for every pain you felt. I know it’s too selfish for me to ask this but please replace it in your heart to do so. I can’t be Collin, I’m not even half as good as him. And he deserves you, goddess! He does! And I don’t, cause I hurt you, I punish you, I threatened you, and god! I wish I never did it. But I did it because I’m selfish Bellamy. I’m selfish and I love you, with all my heart. I love you! So I’m not giving you up.” He said gritting his teeth while holding me once more in his big long comforting arms. His words sounded like a symphony in my ears. But the wall in my heart was too tall to break.

“I will never forgive you. I will never love you.” I coldly said and his mood quickly changed. Tears were forming in his eyes.

I knew he was hurt. It wasn’t like him to pour his feelings into words but he took up all the courage to face me today and tell me all of this with the purest intentions. He brought me here to finally reject me but ended up confessing. After saying my words he walked away. I watched as his back grew farther and farther. This is good, this is the best for everyone.