I Shouldn't Love Him
I Shouldn’t Love Him – Chapter 35

Liya’s POV

I said everything, I revealed what I kept deep down to Inaya. It was

really hard, to say that I didn’t feel good after freeing myself would be a

lie.

It’s been a while since I finished my monologue and yet my friend

hasn’t said a word, which is starting to worry me and make me uncomfortable. I

don’t want her to turn her back on me, losing her too would be painful.

Too lost in my thoughts I jump when his soft hand rests

on mine.

— Sarah…I.my darling, I don’t know what to say…all this time you’ve been putting up with all this without talking to me about it. I am your friend and you should have told me a long time ago, to support you and advise you, my dear. Know

that after what you just told me nothing will change between us, I will never

judge you. Love cannot be controlled, it is not you who chose to love this man who is inaccessible and forbidden to you. And then I think your mother went a little hard with you, it’s true that it’s hard for her but all of

this wasn’t your fault, in any case know that I’m always here for you.

If you see that you’re really not comfortable here, come to my place,

Simon won’t mind.

I take her in my arms, touched by her words, and she responds to my hug.

— Thank you very much Inaya. You know, I love Gabriel, I think I’ll stay with

him for the moment. And then Xavier doesn’t care about me at all, he

will never share the feelings I have for him. The only solution I

found is to forget about it.

I stand up to face her, she gently caresses my cheek without taking her

eyes off me.

—And you think you’ll forget it with Gabriel? Liya you know Gabriel is the ideal man and he loves you very much, but you don’t think you will make him suffer? Because in a way you will use it to stop thinking about another…but is that

a good thing? And can you forget him like this?”

I sigh loudly following his monologue, I get up from the bed and walk towards the window.

– No Inaya, I won’t make him suffer, I’ve thought about it carefully, I feel good with him, he will make me happy and I will be the most fulfilled woman by his side…I will stay with him, I made this decision since this little innocent being was

embedded in me, I said with a smile on his lips while caressing my

belly.

Inaya jumps up and takes long strides closer to me.

— Liya…you…are you pregnant?

— yes Inaya, one month…

I’m still young, it happened too quickly and…

— Do you want to have an abortion? , she asks hurriedly, intertwining her hands with

Mine.

— No Inaya, never! I will keep it and I want it even more since Gabriel told me of his desire to have children. I tell myself that it happened at the right time, it’s in a way the resolution to the problem…my child will have the family he deserves, and my happiness will be with

Gabriel I’m sure…this child will reign joy and love between us.

— I’m very happy for you Liya, I hope you make the right choice, you deserve to be happy just like him, she whispers finally taking me in her arms.

We talked for a while on this subject. I feel a little better . I am very happy to have her as a friend. Then she leaves the HENry home before Gabriel arrives.

I stay lying on the bed impatiently waiting for my boyfriend to arrive

, I can’t wait to tell him about my pregnancy and see his face light up with happiness at this news. I take a look at the time…he’s late today and so am I, I still haven’t prepared lunch.

I’m about to leave the room when my phone on the desk rings. I rush towards him and see Yanis’ name displayed..what does he want from me? Other threats? I hang up on him, and throw my phone on the bed.

I barely got through the door when it rang again, I sighed exasperated then decided to answer…I picked up my phone, frowned seeing “mom” displayed. My hands are shaking slightly, I haven’t heard from her since she kicked me out and now she’s calling me? I hesitantly press the answer key.

– Hello, I say in a neutral tone trying to mask all the emotions that

are going through me.

– There is ? ..”

I shudder at the sound of his voice, why do I feel that I won’t like what happens next?

“—Gabriel had an accident.

I feel my heart skip a beat after the announcement that she just let go so suddenly.

— Qu. What ? But how ? He is fine ? Where is he ? “I panicked, moving in all directions with my hand buried in my hair.

— Calm down, okay, come join us at the Madeleine clinic.

I hang up immediately, I don’t take the time to get dressed, I rush out

of home in my pajamas and looking for a taxi.

I am at the clinic, trembling, I need to calm down, I take a deep breath and approach the receptionist.

— please, Gabriel HENRY’s room”, I asked the woman who looked me up and down strangely.

— Room 27..

I don’t take the time to thank her and runs to take the stairs.

I walk down the long hallway looking everywhere. Not far from me I can see two silhouettes that are familiar to me. I come a little closer…my mother and Yanis? And they hug… How come they are together? Anyway, I don’t have time to waste on that at the

moment, it’s Gabriel who counts.

I approach them. Yanis notices me first then my mother.

My teacher’s look is empty of expression and my mother is sad .

—How is Gabriel? “I was seriously worried at the sight of their state.

I have no response from them, why the hell waste my time, I spot Gabriel’s room which is to my right and head towards it.

— Liya wait…

I don’t take the time to listen to my mother and impatiently open the door.

A nurse I suppose is leaning towards him doing I don’t know what, she notices me and approaches me.

– Miss if he please come out..

to the side and approach my boyfriend.

Arriving at his height, my heart is painfully compressed seeing him thus powerless, his body and face injured and covered in b***d. I take a seat on the bed next to him.

“Gabriel, I’m here,” I whispered in a trembling voice.

I bite my lower l*p, not being able to stand seeing her in this state.

– What happened to you ? I’m sure it’s the bike, how many times have I told you to be careful? My God Gabriel, wake up quickly…I have something to tell you, I whispered painfully.

I close my eyelids several times to stop myself from crying, I place my hand on his, but I immediately tense up…why is his skin so frozen? Shit ! I just noticed that all the machines are off around him. I hurriedly put my hand on his pulse…nothing!

“Gabriel? Can’t you hear me?”

I glance worriedly at the nurse behind me, she doesn’t react and gives me an apologetic look, in front of the door I see Yanis with red eyes leaning against the wall and my mother looking at me strangely.

“No,” I whispered.

I sit astride him and encircle his cold face in my hands.

— Tell me it’s not true…that it’s a joke and that I’m going to wake up from this nightmare, I exclaimed, trembling.

He doesn’t move an inch… I stroke his hair and his growing beard and

crush my lips against his. His lips have lost their softness and

warmth, they are dry, I move my lips to his but I have no response from him just a salty taste that spreads in my

mouth.

— Gabriel…” I whispered against his face.

I grab his shirt and shake him but he doesn’t react.

— You can’t die…no you can’t leave me…YOU DON’T HAVE RIGHT! I cried, sobbing with my head buried against his neck.

It’s not possible, I’m going to wake up for sure, he can’t leave me…I sit up suddenly, wipe away my tears, take his hand between mine and place it on my stomach.

— Look…I have a surprise for you…you’re a dad sooner than expected…and I’m sure he’s a boy like you I want so much…, I exclaimed with a smile on my lips as his pale body was motionless.

I placed my hands on his chest and gently moved his body.

— Answer me, I order you to answer me! You cannot don’t leave us alone..you can’t let your child be born to his father,..I’m begging you,

..GABRIEL STAY WITH ME..” I screamed until my vocal cords were torn.

I exert violent pressure on his ribcage and scream like a hysteric…I press, again and again, his heart must be beating…my pressure is stronger and more violent…it must be beating!

— Beat the f**k…FEAT! “I shouted, my vision blurred with tears.

– Miss, please calm down, there is nothing we can do for him.

I violently push away the nurse who wanted to take me away from him and continues

to attack the lifeless body. of my boyfriend..the father of my

child…the man with whom I decided to make my life..and the man who decided to leave me.

I cry all the tears in my body unable to believe that he is no longer

part of this world, that I will never see his smile again, that I will never be able to

speak to him or feel him…he must come back to life, I pray to You, my God.. not Gabriel!

I feel two large hands placed on my waist, forcing me to leave my lover’s body and my back replaces itself stuck to a chest. –

No…let me go…I want to stay with Gabriel,

— Calm down Liya, you hear me” Yanis growls harshly against my ear.

I still struggle in the air, not wanting to calm down, he puts me

on the ground, and takes me powerfully in his arms.

I give him violent I hit him in the ribs, I try to push him away as best I can, guided by my anger and my pain, but he holds me

firmly against him, telling me to calm down.

I finally grab his t-shirt, hold myself tightly to him and put my face flooded with tears against his shoulder.

— He left us… why is there? He shouldn’t have died, I sobbed loudly, burying my head in his neck.

— There’s nothing we can do about it, it was his destiny, let’s be strong for him, he whispers with a trembling voice, stroking my hair and back and rocking me gently…

We only know the value of a person when they leave us.