Rejected By My Mate, Chosen By Fate
Chapter 103

Special Chapter: Zephyr’s POV

I impulsively flung a chair at Chris when he told me the same disappointing news for the umpteenth time.

He quickly dodged it and the chair slammed against the wall, instantly breaking apart. I could see the raw fear in his eyes as he spoke to me timidly.

“I’m sorry Alpha but we’re really doing the best we can but we still haven’t been able to replace her. Most of us believe that we still haven’t found her up to this moment because she’s no more.” Chris said softly and I growled, tightening my hands into fists.

I was doing all I could to restrain myself from doing something I’d terribly regret. “Just go.” I ordered gruffly.

“But Alpha……” He cut in. “I said leave!” I thundered and he quickly scurried away.

I growled and punched the wall severely until my knuckles bled, staining the wall with my b***d and causing me unbearable pain.

I stopped and looked at my hands before breaking into tears. I deserved this, I deserved this and so much more. I want to feel all the pain that I had inflicted on her, I want to feel all the suffering I put her through. I don’t deserve to live.

“Evelyn. Evelyn Emerson.” The name of my mate echoed continuously in my head, that name had haunted me for the past two years, ever since I found out that she had been innocent all along and that I and everyone else in this pack had punished her for practically nothing.

“I don’t care how you do it, just replace and bring back our mate or I’ll ensure that you never have peace again.” Kieran threatened. He was right, I didn’t deserve to have peace. He had warned me to take it easy on Evelyn but I hadn’t listened, I was blinded by my own rage and thirst for vengeance.

“It was never vengeance that propelled you to do all the terrible things you did to her, it was your own ego. She was our mate for goodness sake, she was young and helpless and instead of protecting her, you chose to become her worst nightmare.” Kieran raged within me. He had been tormenting me ever since we found out the truth two years ago. I have been looking for Evelyn for two years.

After rejecting Evelyn and sending her away from the pack, I had felt a little bit at peace that my father’s death had been avenged but deep down, there was always that uncanny feeling that was difficult to dismiss. After I sent her away, it almost felt like a part of me had gone missing as well, there was just this empty space in my heart that couldn’t be filled, just like something was missing but I couldn’t understand it so I always tried my best to distract myself from the thought by keeping myself busy with different girls.

Evelyn’s departure did affect the pack a lot, just like Doctor Constance had said. Since we didn’t have a slave to do everything for us anymore, I had to make up some new rules and though it was hectic, everyone soon had to get used to doing things on their own, including myself since I didn’t have a mate anymore.

Things went relatively well and everything ran smoothly for a year until one of our scouts caught someone lingering around the border.

They ambushed and attacked him and brought him to me and as expected, he was a spy. The rival packs still hadn’t given up on attacking us since we were one of the smaller packs and it was just very bothersome. We’re all of the same species so we’re supposed to be having celebrations together, instead of engaging in senseless attacks that would bring nothing good to both sides.

I was very angry at the audacity of sending a spy to our territory so I decided to torture the spy myself.

During the process, I found a shocking revelation that would change my life forever and make me regret the person, or rather, the monster I had become.

The spy was the stubborn type and refused to reveal the name of his pack.

I spent days torturing him and on the fourth day, I threatened to kill him and then go after his family.

He chuckled weakly before glaring at me. He told me the words that would haunt my dreams for a long time.

“What do you think Alpha, that you’re so scary? I’m not scared of you one bit because you’re not capable of anything. We killed your father, the former Alpha and in the same way, we’ll end you as well.” He boasted with a bloody mouth and the knife which I had been using to torture him, fell from my hand.

I staggered backwards in raw shock, tears instantly gathering at the edge of my eyes. This guy had just confessed to killing my father but if he really did, then that would mean that Evelyn was innocent all along.

The thought shook me to the core as a mixture of deep regret, shame, anger and frustration resonated within me.

“No, it couldn’t be.” I tried to convince myself. Maybe he was lying just to provoke me. I couldn’t have brutally punished a mute, innocent girl all along, right? I tried to assure myself that I had not done anything wrong. I had to replace out the truth.

I gulped and took a deep breath before straightening out so I would be able to instill some fear in this spy, I needed to know the truth.

“What did you just say? You must be lying, my father was a fearsome man, there’s no way you could have killed him.” I argued, wanting to provoke him to speak the whole truth.

“Can you even listen to yourself? If the Alpha wasn’t murdered then did he die a natural death?” The man snickered, the sarcasm sharp in his tone.

Although I was boiling with rage, I resisted the urge to kill him right away because I desperately needed to know the truth.

“I never said that my father died a natural death, we both know he was murdered but certainly not by someone as incompetent as you. You’re just making tall claims that will end up costing your head.” I said as calmly as I could and the man released a dry cackle.

“You must honestly be joking Alpha. I and a few others ambushed a little she wolf, the Alpha wanted to play hero so he swooped in and tried to save the girl. We saw our chance and we took it, we attacked him and brought him to the ground where he belonged.” The spy spat cruelly and I couldn’t bear to hear any more of his odious words so I dug the knife deep into his chest and twisted it slowly, relishing the satisfying feeling of seeing his pained and horror filled expression as the blade sliced his insides.

He gasped and threw up some b***d before finally giving up. It was good riddance for me but his death did not bring me any type of peace.

In fact, his confession finally opened my eyes to the horrible sins I had committed in the past and I realized the vile things I had done to an innocent girl who was supposed to be my mate. I had been so blinded with hatred that I had failed to see her innocence and her virtue and now I regret every bit of my actions and want to make amends so badly.

After replaceing out the real truth behind my father’s death, I had been so ashamed of my past actions that I had locked myself in my rooms for three days, refusing to see anyone and refusing to eat anything.

I felt so bad that I tried to harm myself on several occasions and I gradually found myself sinking into depression.

I hated myself for my actions and I was ready to give up on everything when Kieran finally talked some sense into me. He told me that there was no use crying over spilled milk or wallowing in regret and self pity. The past was already gone and there was nothing I could do to change it but if I wished to atone for my mistakes, I had to take the present into my own hands and make it into a future that I would be proud of.

Kieran reminded me that I’m the Alpha of this Pack, I’m like a father to everyone that lives here, the foundation of all activities so I couldn’t afford to break down so easily or this would make my pack vulnerable to attacks from our rivals.

Since I had rejected my Luna and sent her away to oblivion, I was all the Pack had left, I was supposed to always protect them and keep everyone safe and being vulnerable and weak wasn’t part of the job so I just had to pick myself up.

Kieran, despite being so angry with me for my actions, didn’t abandon me, he became my only source of comfort and inspiration and so I was able to resume my duties as Alpha.

He badly wanted his mate back and I wanted mine as well and so he tasked me with replaceing Evelyn and bringing her back to the pack.

He gave me an ultimatum of three years to replace our mate and if I was unable to replace our mate after those three years or if she turned out to be dead, Kieran threatened to leave me and that was virtually the worst fate that could befall any werewolf.

Every werewolf has a wolf spirit to which they are bound to from birth and this wolf spirit can only manifest when it comes of age, which happens when the wolf is about thirteen or fourteen years of age for most people.

Our wolves not only give us our powers and our strength, they are also present to guide us through life and give us good advice. Just like humans have freedom with their guardian angels, we can also choose if to take our wolf’s advice or not.

Our wolves stay with us till the day we die but there are rare cases when this doesn’t happen, especially if it concerns the mate bond. A wolf spirit can willingly separate from their human counterpart. It is a dangerous process because the person could die right after and even if they don’t, I don’t think life would be worth living because without a wolf, a werewolf is just a human, weak, powerless and I’d rather die than be made to suffer such a fate.

If Kieran did decide to abandon me, I’m pretty sure I wouldn’t be fit to be Alpha anymore and if I didn’t give up the position willingly, the other wolves could simply kill me just to take it. I couldn’t let that happen at all costs and besides, I need my mate by my side. I need to apologize and try to make up for all the suffering I put her through. I needed to have Evelyn by my side if I was ever to be happy again.

I had rejected and banished her against Kieran’s will and thus, I had deprived him of his soulmate so I completely understand his agony and his desperate need to have his mate back.

I had left my room and called an urgent pack meeting. I announced Evelyn’s innocence and her parents had broken into tears, especially her mother. They must miss her so much, they had been forced to ostracize her because of me, because I wanted her to suffer as much as possible without the love and support of her family since I believed that she was the one who had made me fatherless but now I know better. Her sister seemed really shocked, just like she was trying to process everything but she didn’t react, everyone else was shocked to hear the news and I could tell from their reactions that they were all as regretful as me. We had all wronged poor Evelyn. She couldn’t have even defended herself from the terrible accusation. We had all maltreated and forsaken her when we were supposed to guide and protect her.

And thus, the search for Evelyn began. We’d been looking for her for two years without any luck and with each day of disappointment, I’m gradually starting to lose hope. The thought that I had actually lost her forever is beginning to drive me crazy.

I’ve become very short tempered and aggressive and I tend to go berserk for the slightest mistakes but I just can’t help it. I’m paranoid, I loathe myself.

I just need Evelyn back, I want to rest in her arms and I want her to comfort me. Her warm, beautiful brown eyes and her breathtaking smile are all the assurance I need that everything will be OK.

I need Evelyn back at all costs, I’ll replace her and bring her back to me no matter what it takes and this is a promise that I’ve made to myself, it is one I intend to keep no matter what.